I had a dream, I have a plan.
Jan 02, 2010I had a dream and that dream came true. It was a culmination of a lot of hard work on my behalf, the help of a very gifted surgeon, guidance from a dedicated dietitian, and help from a knowledgeable therapist. Along with support from many people who understood, because they were going through the same struggles with their weight. With such a wonderful support system in place, I was able to lose (including pre-surgery weight loss) a total of 225 pounds. I felt so good, so healthy. I could do things I was not able to do since childhood, like walk on my own, run, get dressed, tie my shoes, you know the kind of things that become possible with this surgery. Life was incredible. Life was worth living again. I had a dream last night. It made me think hard about my life. In my dream I had gained my weight back, not all of it but most of it. I could not walk without assistance, I could not breath well, my chest hurt as did my back, knees, and hips. I was miserable in my dream. The truth is I am well on my way to gaining it back. My weight has skyrocketed. My eating habits are out of control. I cannot seem to take back that control. I have gone from 153 pounds (size 6), to 210 pounds (size 12/14). I am tired most of the time, have a hard time exercising, and feel miserable. I have a plan. I took over a year to gain back these fifty-seven pounds. I will allow myself a year to take it back off. This will require a 4.75-pound weight loss each month, for the next twelve months. When I look at it this way, it does not appear to be an insurmountable task. I will cut back on my sugar and starch consumption. I will go back to measuring out my foods, and plan what I will eat on a daily basis. I will drink more water. I will weigh myself once a week. If I need to, I will start writing down what I consume, and count calories. I had an instructor who said, “Failure to plan is a plan to fail”. This is my plan. Will you make a plan to succeed? I know we can do this. We have come too far and worked too hard to let this dream slip away from us. Best wishes,