02 Februrary 2007

I am currently 32 years old.  I am a single mother of a beautiful little girl.  I'm currently unemployed (mostly due to weight issues), and student.  I'm also a giant nerd/geek.

Well, I've been heavy my entire life (except for a 4 year period where I was basically anorexic), but I gain the most weight right after high school where in the first year I gain over 100 pounds.  I'm currently hovering between 400 lbs and 385 lbs.

 In the last year I've had a significant decrease in my health and mobility, and I'm desperate to lose weight.

 My PCP (Robert Rivera, MD in Burbank, CA) put in a request for authorization for me to see a surgeon for WLS last week.  It could take a couple of weeks to hear back, but I'm hoping that with my history, they'll just approve it.  I know it's not likely, but I'm still hoping.

My step-mother had RNY done about 3 years ago, and she lost 160 pounds.  She's had a bad road, and she suffers every day with vomitting, nausea and bloating, but she's also able to run and do things she hasn't been able to do in 20 years.

I want that.  I want to be able to live again, and to be able to do things with my daughter (6 1/2 years old).  These days just getting in and out of bed is a chore, and nothing is a given.  Walking is nearly impossible, and showering is very difficult.  I have a giant pannus (belly hanging) that hangs OVER my knees and puts constant pressure on my knees.  I can't wear pants or underwear, and even though I would love to try water aerobics, I can't because I can't get into a swim suit, and the pool won't allow me without a swim suit.  I've never been so depressed about the state of my life as I am right now.  Even though I'm more than qualified for lots of jobs, no one will hire me due to my size.  So I'm going to school until I can figure out what to do with my weight and my health.  But even going to school is a hardship physically.  Just walking from the parking lot to my classes takes my 30 minutes and the pain is excruciating. I've developed arthritis, as well as having severe menstrual irregularities and my hypertension is out of control.  I suppose I should be happy that I don't have diabetes or high colesterol.

Anyway, this is the state of things right now.  I'm waiting to hear back from Blue Cross Medi-Cal to see if they'll approve the surgical consult. 

About Me
North Hollywood, CA
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41.1
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DS
Surgery
09/26/2008
Surgery Date
Nov 11, 2006
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