Olivia L.
one day at a time
Jul 15, 2010
So today is officially one month since my surgery. when i came home from the hospital i was 359, today i am 340. so not a huge difference but i am told i am not supposed to be losing that much in the first month. other than that, my eating has been horrendous. i have no clue how much protein i am getting and basically eat apple sauce and soup and fruit. I knew i was going to do this to myself. i told myself that after i had the surgery i was gonna completely change my way of living and loose 200 lbs by my 1 year surgiversary. obviously i am failing miserably at that. i am eating way to much and way too fast at every meal because i have no discomfort and no problems with my pouch. its as if my stomach is still the same size! I dont know what its going to take for me to realize this is my one chance. and on top of all this, i am constantly struggling with what to do with my future. i am going ot be graduating school with an associates degree in theater performance in may and i do not have any interest in going to a university for my bachelors. i just feel like an all around failure.