Palmettosleeve
25 days postop- update
Sep 17, 2011
well hey there OH friends. i'm a couple days shy of 1 month since surgery. seems so unreal. feels like just yesterday i was sittin in the waiting room before my surgery. time flies! its good that ive made so much progress but at the same time im kinda sad. i loved it being new and fresh. i knew exactly what to eat the first 2 weeks. i only had a handful of options. but it seems like now that im on soft foods, i dont know what to eat. ive lost 40 pounds, 25 since surgery. my dr says that 20lbs a month loss is what he expects. but ive heard other doctors want you to lose 10% of your weight, which for me would be 34lbs. im wondering if im doing things right. if ive lost enough. im starting to doubt myself. i know that this surgery was the best thing i couldve done for myself but im still in a "what if" frame of mind. but usually only when i want a food that i miss. i see & smell my fave foods arond me such as pizza, pasta, meatloaf, japanese food, icecream and i say man if i didnt have this surgery, i could eat those things too. BUT thats what got me where i was at 341lbs. i say "what if" i couldve lost weight on my own and not needed surgery. BUT i know that i can lost weight. but i cant keep it off and when i gain it back, its twice as much. i know that i needed to do this for my PCOS and my thyroid problems. so if i know why i got the surgery, why am i "what if"ing? i guess cause though im not craving these foods, and ive licked some foods and they just dont taste as good as they used to, i had a relationship with food. it was comforting. it gave me somethign to look forward to. food was my addiction. and im not really sure what to replace that with now. i'm just glad i did it. im proud of myself for how far ive come. ive lost 40 pounds. i'm bout to break 300 and get into the 200's. i know that ill never see 300 again and i couldnt say that before. im sure as time goes by, and i adjust to my new lifestyle, ill quit doing the what ifs and ill say i did this because:. on a good note, ive lost 40lbs. i'm not getting in all the protein i should every day and not taking my vitamins religiously like i know i should. ive always had a problem stayin committed to anything. but thats what my problem has been my whole life. and thats what im working on changing. i eat when i feel "hungry" when i know i should only eat 3 meals a day. i should probably start journaling my food intake, to keep up with how many calories, carbs, and sugars i should be getting a day. i really need to have a sit down with my NUT during my appointment on Wednesday. but overall, im losing! i know what i need to change. ive lost like 6 inches off my waist. my size 28 pants are already falling off of me. i can tell that my tummy is more flat and my face is so much thinner. my legs are smaller. my shoulders are less broad. only good things to come!
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About Me
Pawleys Island, SC
Location
33.1
BMI
Surgery
08/22/2011
Surgery Date
Jul 19, 2011
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