No way~18 months already!?

Oct 06, 2010

 It is so very unbelievable that  me & banderella have been together for 18 months already! WOW!  18 months and almost 130lbs later, I am loving life! Although my band is just a tool, it has given me the resource and stamina to walk this journey into better health! One thing that banderella has brought me the ability to be cold even though I don't want to be! Saw my internist yesterday and told him that it has been several days of me not being able to get warm! He laughed, looked at my recent blood work, announced it wasn't my thyroid or circulation problem and said, "congrats, you are cold because of the amount of body fat you lost!" So it is the good with the bad huh? I wouldn't change a thing, but damn I'd like to get warm!!!!!!!!!!

Everyone would like to say at 18 months that things are smooth at silk but let me be realistic here with you~I have lost between 3 & 5 lbs here and there and gain in back and lose it again! It has been a struggle recently! I workout like a fiend, others say I workout too much! I can't seem to find that happy medium balance to things! It sucks, but there it is! Most days I eat according to plan, but I am fully aware that I am an emotional eater!! I'm working on it, but nothing like a trip home to Chicago to have me eating a day off program! For the first time in 18 months, I ate pizza! Not just the topping, a slice of pizza! Heaven doesn't even describe it for me! And on the same day, I had a large White Castles Diet Coke! HUGE mistake! I wanted another the next day! Right decision, heck no! But I reigned myself in and got back control! I'm still learning my trigger buttons after all this time! Again, my band is a tool in my stomach, it didn't fix me mentally & emotionally!

One of the best things that is about to happen is next week I will be having breast reduction surgery! Well, I'm supposed to anyway! I'm starting to freak out majorly! I've been big chested since as long as I can remember! I told them I wanted to go to a C cup. For this DDD girl that is A LOT! I held up a C Cup bra and said, "are you kidding me?" So we shall see what the end of the week brings! If I'm just not emotionally ready for it yet, I may postpone it a few months! We shall see I guess! Come next month you may hear we raving about my perky new breasts  My transformation!

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