Sweetie you are ABSOLUTELY RIGHT about researching the hospitals and having this surgery;But the main thing is you are ok now,and still with us!I too at times have even questioned "Where are you God"because I was so down on myself after surgery.No-one knows except the ones who have had it-just how lousy we can feel.Granted there are those super troopers who bounce right back and go on to work or climb Mt Everest...but Im not one of them! I do want you to know Im here for you,and supporting you when you need it.We didnt do this for anyone but ourselves....remember that....it takes time and we are all different.God's Blessings to a super Paula from another one!!!!smiles and hugs!!!!!!! Miss Paula