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so i thought i would write a lil here just to say hi to everyone an update how i been doing..last i wrote on here was a few yrs ago... omg.. its 2012!! i started my journey 2008...... had my surgery 2/09 so ive come a  long weigh since then...... the hardest thing for me is wrapping my mind around all the changes in my life... not that losing the weight hasnt been hard or a struggle cuz if i said that i would be lieing.. but... after losing nearly 300 lbs in 4 yrs ur mind never looks at anything the same way again... u cant walk into a store.. without remembering how it was b4 to have to use a scooter to get around. to have ppl staring at u an crying over not being able to even fit ina  normal bathroom stall... an so on.... i guess with obesity on the rise most of it isnt even noticed.. the bigger u are the more invisible u become to ppl... which is kinda the point since we wanted to cocoon ourselves from the world i guess.. but still so much runnin through my head all the time of the past.. sumtimes i forget im not that person anymore.... i go to get out of the car an think is there enough room for me to open the door? so i can get my fat a$$ out? oh wait.... i dont need as much room as b4...STRANGE..... lil things.. daily... idk... im rambling.. but i just wanted to let u all know im still around an still working on me.... one goal at a time.... an one day at a time..

 i got my blood work results....im doing GREAT... 5.1 hba1c...anything under 6 and under is concidered no longer diabetic... was 8.9 pre-op... im slightly anemic.. just need to up my iron a lil...but everything else is on point! calcium perfect... protein perfect.... and so on... so alot has changed in the last yr... especially the last 5 months... im no longer feeling like  ahuge burden since now including vitamins and calcium... my meds are less then $80 a month now ... and $50 doc visit for b-12 shot every 3 months.. so thats about $1600  a year total not counting blood work.. if needed... not bad huh? compared to $800+ a month meds.. $50 a month doc visit.. to get meds... so say $900 a month... $10,800 a yr last yr... i do spend more on food now... but healthy food isnt cheap.. and what i do buy now lasts me weeks.. not just say one meal and a snack... if that..  i dont really do protein shakes unless im not feeling well and "tiny tummy" needs a rest...  so i still have some stuff i bought pre-op.... feeling less of a burden sure does wonders for the soul..... 

 Well  by now we all know up close and personal about stalls and the guilt of eating... and how no matter how hard we try and think we are doing everything right our body hold on to unwanted pounds...  but we didint get in this shape over nite.. and im here to say..... publically... that.. for once im gona give my self sometime.. and not rush what cannot be rushed... im following doc's orders... and they know what they are talking bout... i've researched the research like so many of u... the body is gona go at its own pace no matter what we do... ( not counting lay on couch stuffing face, thats a thing of the past..) i mean no matter how many times we weigh ourselves... or how many calories we count 20 times... just to make sure we dont go over...or our new problem ... under... am struggling with that one... not getting enough protein and calories.. means  yep u guessed it another stall...........  so im done fretting... im just gona stay on course.. do what i know i need to do.... to the best of my ability... and pray the powers that be  and RNY gives me the strength to lose this excess weight.. im learning how to eat to live... no longer eat for pleasure... or because im bored... i excercise when im up to it..... been feeling anemic lately... getting that checked out tomorrow..  along with labs... hopefully alls good..  body wise not much has changed this past month... been see~sawing around 330... total loss since last july so far 125 lbs give or take...  66 lbs since open RNY... nearly 90 inches over all 30+ from waist alone..  so not much i can complain about.... no long diabetic.. off nearly all meds.. sleep apnea has improved..  only dumped once..  ok im done rambling.. just wanted to up date...  hugs....

~Peg

 OK THIS IS FUNNY BUT TRUE.............

You Know You've Had WLS When:
1. "I have a date" does not mean you're going out.
2. You have baby food in the house and no baby.
3. "I'm a loser" is a good thing.
4. All of your silverware says Gerber.
5. A wooden spoon isn't just for cooking.
6. "Welcome to the other side" doesn't include death.
7. New clothes fall off in a week.
8. You get excited about hand me downs.
9. The scale at Wal-Mart no longer says "one at a time please".
10. Going bald and getting wrinkles is a good thing.
11. "Just water for me please".
12. Hitting the "Century Mark" is actually a good thing.
13. You can be touched by an angel and still not be considered
Crazy.
14. When your rear end no longer looks like a mudslide.
15. When you get excited that your incision was "only 6 inches".
16. When the word lap has nothing to do with a strip club.
17. When you are glared at in the plus size department because don't "belong there".
18. When you really don't have a thing to wear.
19. You have to prove you are the person on the drivers license.
20. You start being in the pictures not behind the camera.
21. You want to hug everyone fat and hand them your surgeons card.
22. You are never parted from a bottle of water.
23. When you order a doggy bag at the same time as your meal.
24. Being too small for your britches.
25. When the only way your nipples are where they belong is to 
roll them up, position them with your bra and secure with a ponytail holder.
26. When you go pick up your child at school and all the other 
kids say WOW you're mom is hot.
27. When you go to the mall a take the first available space instead of circling 20 minutes for one closer to the door.
28. You truly are a "cheap date".
29. When one drink makes you flipping floozy!
30. When you run to the door and don't hear a flapping sound.
31. You flip your shirt to show complete strangers your scar.
32. Vitamins feel like a meal.
33. You go from a 56DDDD to 32AAA in a year and didn't have a 
breast reduction.
34. You've just lost 100 lbs and run into a high school friend who asks "did you change your hair?"
35. You can cross your legs... both of them.
36. Instead of a Wonder Bra you need a Wonder Where They Went Bra.
37. When your obsession from food turns to your scale.
38. They no longer call 911 for the Jaws of life to extricate you
from a turnstile.
39. No more velcro shoes.
40. Tongs are no longer to fry chicken.
41. "Checking for leaks" no longer includes your panties.
42. When your stairmaster is no longer used for drying yur fine
washables.
43. You mother says "You don't eat enough".
44. When your doctor looks you in the eye and says "I know you 
will have success with this."
45. Having sex your husband complains that your hip bones are poking him.
46. You can wear corduroy pants without igniting a fire.
47. When you wave and your upper arms wave back.
48. You safety pin your underwear.
49. You cannot blame the cat for shedding.
50. You cancel your Lane Bryant Credit Card.
51. 3 Lean Cuisines a week and thats your total grocery purchase.
52. The kids wonder what happened to the cake and cookie god..did
he die??

 ((((UPDATED 6-29-09)))))
Lets see... so much has changed since last summer... im a lil over 4 months post-op... RNY Gastric Bypass. Which i had to have for health reasons not just to lose weight... thats just  a bonus.. im doing great in my weightloss journey.. down a total of 117 lbs as of today...  it goes up an down more then a lounge lizard at a truck stop... *behaves* anyhow... i've lost so many inches i cant keep count.. im down to a 2/3x shirt, 26/28 pants womens.. from 5X shirts 6x pants mens.. yes i was so huge i couldnt wear womens clothes.. at one point or at least i couldnt find any that fit.. im able to eat pretty near anything.. i can say that tho... because i dont eat unhealty food anymore... havent tried it.. dont plan too... i eat whats on my allowed list.. an barely ever want that.. so im safe for now..its so fun being able to try on new clothes... was bitter sweet giving away all my old stuff tho.. im content in my love life... it will get better.... all things in time... im off all but one med.. have a check up 7-24-09... will have labs then hopefully all is well... im still having trouble getting around somedays.. but im working on it.. i wont give up.. if u want to know anything else dont hesitate to msg me...

Negative thoughts will NEVER help; they will ALWAYS hurt me.

I will not listen to anyone who tells me what I can’t do.

I am proud of myself for all I have accomplished no matter how small or great.

I will seek out people who empower me. And during those times when they are not around, I will know that I can empower myself.

When I look back at my past I will look tenderly and gently at all I have been through. I will be proud of my accomplishments and how far I have come.

One step at a time. That is how I will get where I am going.

I am ready to heal my heart. I am deserving of this.

Today I take time to inhale peace and exhale fear.

Facing and feeling my fears will empower me to move on.

I can stop punishing myself with fear.

I will not allow the fear of "what if" to ruin the joy of "what is".

Once I have made my food plan for the day, I can put that issue to rest and think about love, work, play, hobbies, and other people. I can be more patient with my recovery today.

Whatever my weight today, I am a worthwhile person with valuable contributions to make to those around me.

I can choose to have a daily reprieve from self-destructive behavior.

I can live in peace at a time of stress.

I cannot climb uphill by thinking downhill thoughts.

I can move away from self-defeating habits.

I have choices. I can choose new responses to old situations. I can learn to recognize my true needs and choose positive ways of satisfying them. I can choose recovery-NOW!

I will aim to follow my meal plan and let life happen.

Understanding and respecting my limits, I can learn to say no to what might jeopardize my serenity and well being.

I need care and attention. I am responsible for seeing that this need is met.

I will give myself the care and attention I need.

I will reduce as much toxicity in my environment and in myself as I can.

I will embrace the changes taking place in me now. They are good.

I will trust, honor, and respect the process of change.

Negative thoughts will NEVER help; they will ALWAYS hurt me.

No one else can blame me and make me feel wrong unless I accept the accusations and choose to feel the guilt.

I am naturally beautiful when I am myself.

I will forgive in order to move forward.

No one can make me a victim unless I allow them to.

Anger hurts more than the person I feel rage toward. I will let go and move on. Life is too valuable to get stuck.

Walking away from something that is bad for me is not quitting!

I will persist until I succeed

I can go the extra mile today

I will dwell on the positive affirmations and things in my life, and they will become my aspiration.

Either I find a way, or I will make one.

It doesn’t matter what the disease is. There is always room for hope. I am not going to die one of the statistics.

The question I ask myself is not if I should heal but how I should heal.

I will not wait to have a good day. I will make one.

I move beyond my old limitations and allow myself to express freely and creatively.

Life is about change, and I adapt easily to the new

I forgive myself and others, release the past and move forward with love in my heart.

I love and approve of myself, am at peace with my own feelings and stand tall and free.

Today I will seek out things that are fun to do.

I am curious, eager to try new things.

I experience and express my emotions freely.

I am creative and innovative

I rest when my body tells me to.

I learn enthusiastically.

Though no one can go back and make a new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new end.

Never give up for that is just the time and place the tide will turn.

If I have inside of me the stuff to make cocoons, then maybe the stuff to make butterflies is there, too.

To be upset over what I don’t have is to waste what I do have.

stupid heavy syrup canned peaches...  even tho i drained an rinsed them.. ate them fine but soon after..i thought i was going to DIE hot flash from hell, couldnt breathe.. pulse racing. ran to potty. thought i was gona puke.. didnt puke ended up with diarrea...  dizzy.. miserable cramps on top of PMS.. 3 1/2 months out an this never happend untill today.. "OK WLS GODS u win... i learned my lesson now please make this go away!!!" layed on bed with fan on praying.... an 30+mins later... all is well.... i just kept telling myself... most ppl on OH say it will go away soon just have to wait it out... an it did.... Thanks to all of u i didnt call 911.. but i so felt like i needed to...

Total inches lost..... 82 is that even possible?? 

i was bored today an decided to up date my measurements..  being as everyone is always telling me to check inches.. since sometimes scale doesnt move.. well i knew my clothes were falling off but i had no idea how many inches i had lost!!! this is totals starting since july 08' when my weight loss journey program began...

 -7 neck -11 chest -27 waist   -5 bicep -4 arm -17 thighs -11 calfs

So far.. im down a total of 108 lbs since July 08'   
52 lbs since surgery feb.23 09'

5'6" 453 5/6X 75.3 bmi 
~down to ~ 
5'5" 345 2X 57.4 bmi 
  

I Feel Like a New Person!!! Dont get me wrong i still have Extremly bad days where i am tired cranky miserable in pain {joint,back other wise} from years of all that weight eating away at me.. but one good day makes up for a life time of what was..  im off almost all my pre-surgery meds... except for blood pressure but im sure i will be off that one soon.. i dont feel like i need it as much as i used too.. but have replaced those precriptions with.. flintstone complete vitamins 2 /day and caltrate calcium 600+D 2/day at different times.. not together.. suggested by surgeon.... benefiber...

laundry list of medical problems..
Diabetes gone.....   Gall Bladder... Removed.. so gall stones Goneeeeee.... severe knee Pain goneeeeee.. still sore but not nearly as much.. sleep apnea.. went from 11 to a 9 on cpap pressure.. cholesterol.. normal under control  hypo-thyroid.. normal  kidney disease inherited.. an will progressively get worse unfortunatly.. not much i can do but live healthy life style an hope for best.. pcos.. showing less symptoms since 1month after surgery... very hormonal tho.. from all the excess hormones that are melting out of my fat weird...

im doing ok as far as protein im getting it from food not using shakes much.. only if i didnt get enough in that day.. but my calories are a lil low still 800ish a day.. nut suggested 1200 to keep my body from going into starvation mode.. theres some truth to getting in those calories tho because when i do manage more calories i lose more weight.. so hard to wrap my head around that.. so many years of being told eat less u eat more u lose..   


Things im eating...
turkey
ham(rarely)
roastbeef
ground beef
eggs skinless chicken(boiled,rotisseree,baked wrapped in foil so its moist)
london broil(made in soup, beef barley vegie..YUMO!) tuna(small amount real mayo,dill relish, Mrs.Dash garlic herb)
meatballs
peanutbutter.. peterpan.. actually. havent had a problem with it only as a treat on low cal days tho.. i dont make a habit of it..
beans any kind {chickpeas,pinto,kidney,blackbeans,redbeans,}
nuts.. so far only tried cashews.. (MY FAV) found they are a trigger food..  will eat them till they are gone.. 5 at a time..  even tho the week i had them i lost 5lbs in 3 days.. hmmm still debating on those lol
homemade split pea & ham soup
low fat cheeses, cheese sticks, cottage cheese,provolone,
peaches,apple sauce,limes,pineapple,
carrots,celry,onion,peas,corn,canned tomatoes,green beans,
brown rice, barley,cheerios,low fat wheat thins, lowcarb whole wheat tortillas, whole wheat pasta(regular pasta twice since surgery just doesnt sit well) 12 grain bread, whole wheat bread,   

and wls friendly stuff... suger free popsicles,fudgesicles, pudding, jello, yogurt..


drinking...
crystal lite all flavors(lost of ice).. helps me get my water in.. 
juice (no sugar added..cranberry,cran-rasberry,apple,orange) 4oz once in a while..poured over crushed ice
skim milk(rarely)
isopure water(rarely)

An amazing journey an im barely getting started... i cant believe its been 3 months..


   

"What may at first seem to be a step back may be the catapult u need to move u so much further forward... Back is not always back."  J. Collins

"You must have long term goals to keep you from being frustrated by short term failures."
Charles C. Noble

"To Achieve Your Dreams Remember Your ABC's Avoid negative sources, people, places, things and habits.
Believe in yourself.
Consider things from every angle.
Don't give up and don't give in.
Enjoy life today, yesterday is gone, tomorrow may never come.
Family and friends are hidden treasures, seek them and enjoy their riches.
Give more than you planned to.
Hang on to your dreams.
Ignore those who try to discourage you.
Just do it.
Keep trying no matter how hard it seems, it will get easier.
Love yourself first and most.
Make it happen.
Never lie, cheat or steal, always strike a fair deal.
Open your eyes and see things as they really are.
Practice makes perfect.
Quitters never win and winners never quit.
Read, study and learn about everything important in your life.
Stop procrastinating.
Take control of your own destiny.
Understand yourself in order to better understand others.
Visualize it.
Want it more than anything.
‘eXcellerate’ your efforts.
You are unique of all God's creations, nothing can replace YOU.
Zero in on your target and go for it!"
~Wanda Hope Carter   "People who say it cannot be done should not interrupt those who are doing it."Anonymous    "Happiness is not by chance, but by choice."
Jim Rohn 

"A great attitude does much more than turn on the lights in our worlds; it seems to magically connect us to all sorts of serendipitous opportunities that were somehow absent before the change."
Earl Nightingale
  I'ts not what happens to you that determines how far you will go in life ;it is how you handle what happens to you.
Zig Ziglar   Success is not measured by what you do compared to what others do, it is measured by what you do with the ability God gave you.
Zig Ziglar   Don't be distracted by criticism.Remember-the only taste of success some people have when they take a bite out of you.
Zig Ziglar   The greatest single cause of a poor self-image is the absence of unconditional love.
Zig Ziglar   "When life’s problems seem overwhelming, look around and see what other people are coping with. You may consider yourself fortunate."
– Ann Landers   "Do not let the future be held hostage by the past."Neal A. Maxwell    "Goals that are not written down are just wishes."Anonymous

"Obstacles are those frightful things you see when you take your eyes off your goals." Anonymous

"Do not pray for easy lives. Pray to be stronger men/women! Do not pray for tasks equal to your powers. Pray for power equal to your tasks." Phillips Brooks

"Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them. Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it." Rabindranath Tagore

"No one can defeat us unless we first defeat ourselves." Dwight Eisenhower

"It is truly said: It does not take much strength to do things, but it requires great strength to decide what to do." Chow Ching

"Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will." Mahatma Gandhi 

 One day at a time is enough.. don't look back & greive the past. its gone.. dont be troubled about the future, it has not come yet... live in the present & make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering!