Making Steps

Oct 25, 2009

So tonight I saw and advertisement on television for chocolate truffles. Now, chocolate was never one of my biggest weaknesses, but I do have a horrible sweet tooth, and on occassion, I used to go out buy a bag of those truffles and eat them all. When that ad came on, my first reaction was, "wow that looks good, I miss those. I wish I had those. I wonder what's in the kitchen...", and immediately after that, " I remember that those weren't thaaat good. Nothing is ever as good as it looks. Why do I want that? Am I even hungry?"

And then came the new realization of how much ate just to eat. I wasn't hungry, I didn't need, or even want those foods. For example, let's take my biggest weakness: Ice Cream. I always loved ice cream, the many different flavors and variations, the different ways it could be served, the creaminess. I used to eat it by the pint, sometimes more than once a week. I'm very happy to report that in the past month, I've eaton ice cream on only two occassions, and one of those being by pure accident when I agreed to split a dessert and my friend ordered gelato, I said "okay" not even thinking about it.  The other time being stopping for ice cream with friends. Otherwise I have not purchased it, brought it home or eaten it at all.

It started as a bet between my boss and I, she gave up chips and for soldarity I gave up ice cream. Our agreement was two weeks, but as time went on, we kept going. And I don't even miss it, tonight I realized that I miss the action of sitting on my ass and gorging myself on whatever it was I had a craving for or whatever was close at hand. Now that I know that I engaged in that behavior, I have to figure out why.

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