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almost 9 months out...
Mar 03, 2008
Also, I don't even know if my confidence level has been affected by all of this. I really need a therapist.
:o
Dec 10, 2007
21 more pounds to go to finish my mini goal, leaving me at 200 pounds. My 6 months is tomorrow. I wonder if I'll continue losing weight!
woot woot
Oct 31, 2007
I really am not eating right though. Keep forgetting my vitamins. My hair is falling out like craaaaazy. But I feel awesome physically.
One thing that kinda bugs me is my ex. We broke up almost 2 years ago but completely stopped speaking/messing around in February of 2007...and I saw him for the first time this past Sunday since February...weighing atleast 70 pounds less since the last time he saw me! (I hadn't quite become 320 in Feb...maybe around 300) so we spoke a little. I was a little drunk so I wasn't as mean as I'd like to have been but I definitely saw him give me the eye. I don't know if he's gonna try to call me or anything and I don't know if I want him to or not...I'm really confused. I know it's because I haven't dated anyone seriously since him that I feel like this. Almost 2 years since I've had a real boyfriend!!! I need therapyyyyyyyy. =(
Today, Oct. 8th, 244 pounds.
Oct 08, 2007
Also, the nutritionist told me that I've lost weight really fast. 77 pounds in almost 4 months? (I'm 3 days away from 4 months) I mean hello, I had my stomach cut!!! I didn't MOVEEEEE for years and years! I was eating like 3000 calories a day and not moving an inch. Now I eat less the 1000 calories a day (i think!!!) and I MOVE. My body is like "WTF??????? WHAT ARE U DOING!!??!" hahha
Oh. So since I lost this weight, I've developed slight self esteem...well I've been rejected 3 times this month by guys. Twice at 2 different bars and once by a friend of a friend. Uh...maybe I shouldn't hit on guys.
This month didn't go so well.
Oct 07, 2007
Also, this month I barely lost 10 pounds. I've been cheating.
ugh.
Sep 12, 2007
So, I saw Dr. Dakin today...he's like "so you've lost about 45 pounds?" um...in 3 months? No. I've lost almost 70! They had the weight that I was at when I FIRST came to the clinic...I gained another 22 pounds before surgery!!!!!!! Jeez...I was a little upset by that..I don't even know why, because the fact is that I did lose 68.5 pounds as of today and I know that, but I just wanted my surgeon to be all happy and proud of me and he didn't really seem to care either way...whatever.
Also some other disappointing news; I had my mom take some new progress pics of me the other day and they are definitely not as impressive as I previously thought they would be....I mean I do look smaller and I know I'm far smaller then I was, seeing as how I was veering on a size 26 and now I'm between 18-20 depending on what brand jeans.....but I just don't photograph well. But I KNOW I look better in person then the pics, so I'm gonna wait til I lose maybe another 20 pounds and then I'll take pictures.
Well...what else...all my clothing from last winter are too big and look horrible, so I'm screwed for this season because I'm broke (unless I start working...just finished school! Got an interview tomorrow and I went to one last week) So I'm broke and I have a lot of things to pay off before I start buying shit for myself. I definitely will buy an awesome winter coat though because last winter I bought this blah black pea coat that made me look like a dumpster, and I tried on this one in the regular section that would've looked amazing if it had fit, but alas, it didn't. Also, I have this old pair of stretch pants and from the side when I wear them with a pair of heels, I look like a normal person! Like my thigh is the size of a normal persons! I need to get a pair of those for this fall! In fact...about fashion...basically my problem is this: I've been huge my entire life except when I was 17 and lost a bunch of weight because of Stacker, but back then I was going through a little slutty phase and dressed horridly...now I'm a BIT more perceptive of what clothes are stylish, I do watch What Not To Wear! So I'm 21 years old and I don't want to dress completely adult, but I also don't want to dress in the typical teenage attire that I've been sporting, like Capri jeans with a solid black tank top and flip-flops, or during the winter, a pair of jeans with Converse sneakers and a solid colored long sleeve shirt. I want to grow up a little...so I'm starting out with flats, maybe some different colored shirts, some jewelry...I DUNNO!@!!! just ranting...
Ok, ta-ta for now!
Okay it's my damn blog, so I'm going to be honest!!!
Sep 08, 2007
Now, I've come to realize that I had previously written here that you do indeed lose more weight when you walk!!! What a moron I am.
Tonight I'm going out to a bar, so that'll keep me nice and active (and drunk) :) MUST. TAKE. NEW. PICS!!!!!!
almost 3 months
Aug 27, 2007
Mmm i'm hungry now =\
2 months post op
Aug 15, 2007
I also went blonde and got a nice tan, so I look mighty different...and I feel amazing too. My birthday was this past Sunday so Saturday night I went out to a bar with my friends (it was my 21st, I had to!) I got HIT ON by a few guys, I danced a little...I just felt amazing!!! And that's just 53 pounds down! :)
So...I got drunk that night too. After the first shot or 2 I was drunk but I passed through really fast so I kept drinking and I got wasted without realizing! I didn't throw up though...positive side of being Russian :P Well I'm gonna have my mom take some pics of me to put on here later tonight so I'll put em up tomorrow or something.
Ta Ta!
wooow! i feel good, de-ne-ne-ne-ne-ne-ne..JAMES BROWN<3
Jul 21, 2007
But I think I have overeaten a few times...because after I finish eating my heart starts beating fast and I get all nervous...like right now I ate some cereal and my heart is beating lol...well anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy i'll write back soon.