Pilar12

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Well here I am almost 14 months out. I am skinney and trying to live with it. I really do appreciate everything that has happened to me over the last 20 months. I am so glad that I made up my mind about receivng such a wonderful gift from Dr. Patching.

However I am wondering if some of you have "mirror" images about how you look. I mean mentally, I see myself as fat still! I think this is because I was for so long in denial. I used to mentally envision myself as thin! This is so weird to me! 

Having said that, most of the time, I am thinking and doing things with my new body that I could not do for a long time. Oh how I wish I would have gotten this done earlier in my life. But I am moving forward and not worrying myself about what I should have done!

 Wow. Three months and counting! I had all kinds of plans before my surgery: How fast I would bounce back, the clothes I was to buy, the long and hard exercise routines, the admiring from my husband and others, the immediate resolution of my diabetes and high blood pressure, the huge wonderful response from my family and lastly; my fountain of youth. What did I get? Slower to get on my feet then I thought, I can not afford to change my wardrobe with the latest styles, exercise I do when I am up to it, my husband does admire me-sometimes, the diabetic number is going down slowly, my severity obese eldest son has not spoken to me since early 2/10-right after my surgery and let's it; getting old is getting old.

Would I do it again?? Hell yes! I like looking at my smaller body. I found some beautiful clothes in my closets that I could not wear when I was fat.  Now they fit! I look good. I see someone I have not seen in years when I look in the mirror!! My friends and enemies at work are amazed! I get treated way different. They do see a younger woman and not the tired one they had experienced working with over the last few years. My son will come around. My diabetes and high blood pressure will be only a sad memory. My weight will stabilize at the right one. My husband is more attentive and takes a lot of pictures of me with his IPhone! I will wear clothes that are in the 8 to 10 size that I want and I will find a way to pay for them. Hm mm I can't forget about that nice tummy tuck too...... Pilar12

Hi everyone-

I came through very well. When I arrived at the hospital on Wednesday, I was so hungry because of the 2 day fast. God I could have eaten everything! Once I woke up, I had no appetite at all just really thirsty! They would not allow me any water for hours only swaps of water on my lips and gums! Then the leak test was like heaven; juice with a straw! My gosh, I had to spread it over 4 hours! Anyway, my diabetes went down so quick it was amazing! Then just as I was setting in to enjoy 3 or 4 days of pampering they kicked me out! Oh well my hubby made up for it! So I am here at home, 5 days after the surgery and only am trying to find what suits me to eat. It looks like I won't be able to tolerate real sugar, yea! I actually got a little nauseous from very diluted apple and cranberry juices! I did suck on a sugar free pop-sickle and looks like it agreed with the pouch. So to all my friends and well-wishers and those who sent prayers for me and mine a BIG THANK YOU and may GOD bless you all  I will be calling upon you for strength and guidance and happiness for my successful weight loss which I hope will start soon!!

To everyone a great new year is here! I am excited! The last day of 2009 was well, different. I had a bunch of running around to do and started out thinking I would be finished in about two hours later. Three hours later, I was standing in line at the grocery store waiting and waiting. While waiting, I went over in my mind the fact that I almost died at least three times by really bad, fast driving people! Even an old lady tried to beat me out of my long awaited parking space at the bank!! I know I should have let her have it but she acted like I should get out of her way!! Boy, the last day oV   f 2009 and people are still acting very badly and seem so driven to be as nasty as possible to others!! I guess I am expected to pretend not to notice but I can't. I still believe that things will get better in our world and I do expect us to care about the next person...So it's as simple as letting the next old lady having the darn spot!! So again Happy New Year to all!!! P

Hello out there!! Where is everyone? Are you all out there worrying about the holidays? Well I am too! Let's keep writing to take our minds off of food, food and more food and bad stuff to drink. You know what I mean.    Pilar

11/12/09

Well here i am waiting and waiting. Have completed all tests, but need to get into surgeon's office to do meal review. I know i have a terrible relationship with food. I am trying to consciously notice what I eat. It's a pain because it makes me hungry just thinking about food. I think the rny is for me, but I have not  ruled out the lap band.  Pilar