The in-between place and body issues

Nov 10, 2009

I am in such an in-between place right now.  I am 7 months out, 113 lbs gone, yet I am still morbidly obese.  I am living a really healthy lifestyle,  certainly healthier than anyone I know when it comes to the food I eat, exercise and drinking water  But to anyone that passes me on the street, I am just another fat person.  That's what i see when I look at myself.

I remember thinking pre-op that ANY weight loss would make me happy.  Even 100 lbs will make me feel and look different.  But now here I am more than 100 lbs down and I am still unhappy with my body, if not more so sometimes because of issues I am having with sagging skin.  My thighs and arms look terrible, and my breasts are just becoming pathetic imitations of breasts.  I don't think i will be able to get plastics, and I know that as I lose more, the skin will just get worse.

I know that I'm healthier, and i am so grateful.  That is the ultimate reason I had this surgery.  But it makes me sad to realize that I am going to hate what my body looks like no matter what I weigh.

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