17 months...and I'm losing the wrong thing!

Nov 01, 2010

I'm frustrated with myself.  I'm not losing weight...instead I'm losing my willpower along with my determination and drive instead. Halloween was awful, I just kept slamming down the chocolate...which led me to even more carbs.  Dr. Weiger didn't think I needed a fill because I had been losing about a pound a week but now I have to wait until December 4th for my next appointment and I am starving...all the time! My last fill was in July I believe. I feel like I have no band...I have been overly emotional and stressed out so maybe it's me being an idiot and *thinking* that I need food.  I was so strict with myself for so long that I can't believe I would stop now when I have just 12lbs before I hit Onederland. 

SOMEBODY SMACK ME!!

Well...okay don't smack me quite yet...it's a good thing that I realize this, right?!  It's November 1st.  I have over a month until my next fill and I will just have to deal with it.  I seriously feel like Im back in Bandster Hell...actually Im not even sure that I felt this bad back then...so starting NOW...I will be pushing the protein/no carb thing, water, and work outs.  I am in love with Zumba so let's see how much of my ass I can dance off in by my 18mth bandiversary!    Wish me luck!

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