Congrats on being on the loosers side. I sure hope you get better soon, i am new and i cant say that i understand (just yet) but i sure know how it feels to have people behind you supporting you and encourageing you and thats what i would like to do, encourage you, i was in my physcs office the one day and he has a plaque that reads "the worst hour of your life only lasts 60minutes" (authour unknown) so i hope your worst hour is up and that being on the loossing side is making you smile..
Paula