Ms. Laura,
I'm praying that God will give you an uneventful surgery and a speedy recovery. We all share the same story of being overweight and wanting to do something about it. To live longer and healthier lives. God created this wonderful tool for people like you and me to utilize it to the fullest. Its perfectly normal to have mixed feelings, but for me it was one of the best decisions I've ever made and would do it again in a heartbeat. After this surgery, in addition to you being grown and sexy (because I believe we as women are beautiful already in whatever size) you are going to be healthy. That my dear is priceless. So when the jitters come say I'm getting healthy for myself and the people who love and care about me. "Speak things as though they were." Their is room for you on the losing side, see ya there! GOD BLESS YOU!!!!!!!!