1 yr out

Oct 02, 2009

wow, I haven't posted on here in ages.  So a yr ago today I was pacing the hallways with my new friends in Puerto Vallarta Mexico.  So much has happened in a yr.  I am a completely new person.  Life is incredible.  I smile more every day, I am not grumpy nor do I get angry anymore.  (well, once in a while I do).  Work is alot less stressful, and my relationship is growing stronger every day.  I have confidence that I thought I had lost for good. 

I have discovered so many things about my body.  I have COLLAR BONES!!!   how kewl is that?  yesterday my son was tapping on them like he was playing drums.  lol.  I discovered my sternum and my ribs.  They have been hidden under layers of fat for so many yrs.  Yesterday I weighed in at 163.5 lbs.  That is half a pound away from 120 lbs lost and only 3.5 lbs from my goal of 160.  Never in my life would I have imagined I could weight 160 lbs.  I can shop in normal stores now and I am no longer restricted to the same iteam of clothing in several different colors.  No more buying my clothes at "Joes tent and awning".  My clothes are now smaller than my 22 yr old daughter's.  She is not overly thrilled with that fact, but she supports me completely.  I want to try on her prom dress so bad, but I think it will be to big for me and that would upset her very much.  Just once, I'd like to feel like a princess in a big puffy gown.  lol

I have started jogging.  Even when I was in highschool I got out of running because I have asthma.  Since the surgery, my asthma is almost non existant.  My blood pressure has gone from high, to extremely low. 

Now the next step in the physical and mental transformation.  I am scheduled for plastic surgery with Dr. Sauceda in December.  the waiting is the hardest part.  I was more comfortable in my fat body than I am in this droopy and saggy body.  My NGB's (National Geographic Boobs) are the worst.  (sorry if that is to graphic for some).  Every day I manipulate my saggy skin and day dream about what Dr. Sauceda will do to me.  I can't wait to be "normal" again.  I am excited and terrified all in the same breath. 

This past year has been incredible.  The physical changes still amaze me.  So many people don't recognize me.  I am convinced that I have found the fountain of youth.  I am 45 yrs old but I feel like I am about 30.  I have met some wonderful people.  Emilie will be a friend forever.  She was a day after me in surgery.  I truly believe that we were meant to be friends.  She has helped me thru some difficult situations just by listening and praying for me.  The only bad thing about meeting Emilie is that she lives so far away.  Emilie has taught me so much.  I don't think she realizes that.  She taught me to take pride in my appearance, even when I feel like crap.  She has helped me understand who I am.  

And then there is Linda  :)....  She is a lil closer but still so far away.  Linda has made the same journey as I am taking with her surgery in Mexico as well as plastic surgery with Dr. Sauceda.  She is the reason I decided to have my plastics with Dr. S.  I met Linda in Vancouver a few weeks ago for the first time and we connected completely.  It amazes me how the internet and these common directions have connected me with two incredible people.  I am sure there will be many more before it is all over.

Life is wonderful.  The decision to have WLS was the best decision I have ever made for myself.  I'd do it again in a heart beat and I encourage anyone who is overweight to consider the same direction.

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