Why post a blog?

Sep 26, 2009

Well, I have been on this forum for several years now.  I go to this website and one other lapband site to talk about issues.  Have loved reading about successes and struggles from all the members and it just dawned on me that I need to share stuff too.  If for no other reason to reinforce the time spent and effort made to try and transform my life for the better.  Up until now, I have not been successful in my weight loss efforts, but my family life is great.  I have a wonderful husband, a 10 year old son, and a 3 year old son.  I love my turtles and dogs, love my job, have a wonderful life.

Now I am thinking about revising to RNY from my lap band.  So if I drop dead on the surgeons table, somebody email my husband and let him know I have announced to the world that I am totally happy with my life. (But yeah, not my weight.)

Had the lapband put in in 2006.  The best I could do with it is to lose 40 lbs.  Which has come back and gone away a million times over in the past 3 years.  I have had terrible pain, acid reflux, slip, you name it.  I truly hate this thing and what it has done to my life. 

I am terrified of the RNY because I worked behind the scenes at a hospital 10 years ago and know the issues that come up, come back, and need surgery.... again... and again. 

My surgeons office says that alot has changed since then, but I still wonder.  Will my incision get infected, will I have to be opened up and rinced out because of a leak, will my hair fall out, will I get too skinny?  Will I be the one that looks old or young after the weight loss?  Will I need plastic surgery because my knees are at my ankles?  And where will my boobs end up?

But I am not doing this for cosmetic reasons.  My health is bad, my family history is a basic death sentence, my weight is climbing, and I just keep doing worse and worse physically with HBP, PCOS, Diabeties, backpain, sleep problems, etc.

They are going to remove the band one way or the other.  Since I will be opened up anyway figure we might as well convert to something else.   

Just an update I am scheduled for the DS with Dr. Stewart in Denton!  No longer fear the future.  No Rny for me!

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