Fabulously 50!

Oct 28, 2012

So happy so excited and so proud to say, I am 50 today! I had 2 burfdays this month, my real Burfday and I turned 50, and earlier this month, Oct 1, 2007 was my "surgery 5th BURFDAY"!

      I had always hidden my family nick name , "Tiny", from everyone! Even close friends didn't know it. I was always so embaressed by my size, I was no way in hell  a "TINY" person!

      Wow, has this surgery changed my life in sooooo many ways! Everytime I had blood work done, I was always asked if I was a drinker, because I had "fatty liver". My blood work was showing that I was  quickly on the road to diabetes, and high blood pressure. I had had hernia & gall bladder surgeries. Back, knee & foot pain on an on going basis. I was becoming  so use to those aches and pains, that it was quickly becoming my new "normal"! And numerous times I had parents ask when I was due? My obesity was interferring with my life (I began avoiding friends & family)! With my job (I couldnt get back up from the floor without having to use furniture to get up with) and with my family (I felt as if I was embaressing them by my size)! My SURGERY was my cry for  HELP!

              5 years later, I feel like a whole new person! My energy and esteem are soaring! My confidence helped me regain myself respect and I no longer "give my power away". People treat me better, they respect me and they care about what I think and who I am. I guess they think because we were BIG that we were not too intelligent? I have been side by side in elevators & even the ecliptacle machine in the gym next to parents of children I have cared for, and they never recognized me at all!!!!! That can be kinda "powerful", especially if you never cared much for the parent, LOL!    

Exercise has been also sooooo powerful a "tool" I use, beside the surgical "tool" ! I can't believe how much I have embraced it! At work, everyone knows, including my pre-schoolers that Miss Carmen needs to change into her exercise clothes and get her exercise in! Even while visiting my family this weekend, they know my routine when I visit, gotta get up and walk, at least 3 miles!!!! I can fore go a day or 2, but not more than that!

          Anyway, I Thank God everyday, for gifting my surgeon with the skills and placing so many caring people from OH on my path to walk along side me and understand my "obese mind". Thanx everyone for letting me share and vent around here!!!!!

Carmen

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