PrettyPixieGirl
Changes
Jan 05, 2010
Well on the 30th it was 3 months. I am happy to report 44 lbs gone. On anyone else I would say that is wonderful! On myself I seem to feel disappointment. I wanted to be at the 50lb mark by new years. I have to stop myself and remind myself that I don't even remember being this weight after HS. Some people lose weight like a slide, others like steps. I lose weight in steps. I will lose a lb a day for 3-4 days then nothing for a week. I also go up and down 2-3 lbs during my stalls. Thouh the scale disappoints me, I keep finding new NSV's. The biggest one to me was flying to MD to see my boyfriend. Every flight before this was torment. The flights are always full. I would be jam packed next to people i don't know and spend 3 hours holding tight to my arms so I don't touch them. The seatbelt was so tight i couldn't buckle it without sqeasing and twisting. Trying to suck in so that i didn't have to admit I needed an extender. I actually needed my best friend to buckle it for me on the way to mexico. I couldn't do it alone. So now fast foward to new years eve. First flight since coming home from surgery. Not only could I buckle the seatbelt no problem but I HAD TO TIGHTEN IT! Like 5-6 inches tightened! I could put my arms down and not be leaning on the person next to me!I am trying to take this one day at a time and be thankful for the small goals I am reaching instead of moaning about how far the big ones are. I bought a scrub top that is a Large! Never in my adult life! Sizes are abit frustrating though. I can buy a large scrub top but I needed a 2x in a sports jersey. I have to try everything on to be sure. I can wear a size 18 jeans but the waist seems to be lower and pushes up against my pudge making unattractive rolls. I even fit in a 16. But again was unattractive. So I mostly wear my size 20 jeans that are slightly too big.
Things on the non-weightloss front are very busy for me. I took a travel nurse assignment in AZ. So I am packing up my things and driving to AZ where I will live for 13 weeks. I am hoping that i will be another 30 lbs less by the time I come back home to visit. From AZ I am gonna go to another state. Who knows where. This is the first time I am moving away from everything I know. I am scared but I need to mix things up and change my life. Well that's my update.
