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Well I know it has been some time that I have written a blog. I have been so busy trying to get my life in order. I've had ups and I have had downs, but not allowing the downs to get to me. I've been slow but very steady with my weight loss. Doing what I can, still have the lazy bones, need to get into the gym to tighten up. I'm doing pretty good and feeling great, I have 39lbs to go before I shed the rest of weight and get to my doctor's goal. I have tons of emails from you guys and promise to get to each one. Miss you much....

Yo, I miss you too!!!! Will call asap!

I will post again soon, stay blessed

Hey Guys, I'm checking in. Well I'm two months out and down 30 pounds. I'm crawling along. I'm shedding the pounds just at a smaller pace. I'm going to make it and promise to come on and keep you guys updated and post a pic to track progress visually. I'll be back, wish me luck!

Love ya
Di

Oh my Gosh, I have been losing weight so slowly, February 22, I will be a month out. I am on my third week going on fourth and have only lost 20lbs.  I really dont understand. Perhaps it's because I'm not eating enough, i know my water intake is very, very low. I drink oone shake a day and usually have two meals which each consist of 3 ozs of food, so wtf? I know for a fact that my calorie intake is very low I say no more than 400 caloreis, my proteins perhaps 40-50. I don't eat anything I'm not suppose to, I drink 30 minutes after a meal and never drink before a meal. so I don;t understand. In addition to this my scale is crappy, "V", I went to target to get the WW scale you have, but they were sold out, ugghhh! PErhaps my body is in starvation mode, myabe I was considered a light weight, maybe my pouch just doesnt work, maybe my metabolism slllloooowed way down, dman it i dont know. UGGHH, HELP!!!!!!! I see my doctor for my one month check-up this week. maybe he'll okay me to begin working out. This is so mind baffling! I know the more weight you have to lose the faster you will lose but I thought i would have lost at least fifteen more pounds by now....

Today I had to go to the doctor’s office. APPARENTLY he forgot something in me! Yes, well remember last week when he took the staples out....guess what. Damn it there were two staples in my belly button and he failed to remove one. UGGGHHHH, I always examine my body and something just didn't seem right, and there was this God forsaken fowl smell coming from my button. Damn it, it was a staple, and it was all swollen and red, deep down inside, so today I went. He snipped it away in seconds, cleaned it up. And of course it is infected...I knew that, Duah! 17lbs lost...that's it? Two weeks and only 17lbs, some people break that in a sweat over two days...okay. okay, I’ll be a bit more patient. I'm lost, i don't know what to eat. Can’t get my water in and my shakes, and my vitamins. i need to get this together. I had an issue when I went to fill the prescription for my  antibiotic, first of the man asked me the date of birth for the patient, i replied 02/28/73 he said no! Not your date of birth the patient's date of birth, I said sir I am the patient, he gave me a double take and said miss, this prescription is for liquid antibiotics (you know the pink liquid you give the kids and babies when they're sick), Sir yes I know, it's for me. YOUR DOCTOR PRESCRIBED YOU A LIQUID ANTIBOTIC???? THAT'S WRONG. Here we go!!! Sir if you must know I am unable to swallow, digest, and absorb pills at the moment. Therefore I was prescribed a liquid antibiotic!!!

 

 

P.S. I almost choked on water twice and chicken once (yes I chewed, chewed, chewed!) but I’m living day by day! Doing it guys….

 

 

 

 

 

 

Well today is Friday, and I'll be in my pjs with my rob and socks curled up on the couch watching tv sipping on my protein drink. No partying for me for a LOOOOONNNNGGGG time. I've already started shopping though, yes I have an issue, but Baker's had a killer sale. I'm so excited about my WLS, I don't know what to do with myself. This morning I had a doctor's appointment with Dr. Sapala, oh gosh, he removed the rest of the staples, the one in my belly button hurt the most, &*@#, hurt like hell! But so glad it's OVER, Doc says my incision is wonderful and will fade away nicely, I ran out and purchased Mederma, I've heard mixed reviews about it. Some say it works others say it really isn't different from using vitamin E and/or coco butter. It's pretty pricey at $30.00 for a small tube. Well I'll just give it a try and see what happens. I'm on my way, down ten lbs in my first week, not to mention an additional 6lbs that I aquired from the hospital. I'm happy, oh, i find that keeping the band around the waist helps to slim the shape. I'll wear the band for maybe two months or a girdle. Doc said I can have puree foods starting today...boy that was fast. I'm kinda scared to eat guys. I haven't eaten at all today, I've been sipping on this protein shake for the past hour and kinda don't want anything else. Uggghhh, wish my brave little "Stoma" luck today with dinner.
In much better spirits today
Love ya guys

 

Hello everyone decided to post today and let you guys know how I'm feeling.  First and foremost I am very fatigued, I guess because lack of protein or just nutriment in general. Well I'm glad I don't have to work. So there are a few things going on with me, first of all I gained five pounds after surgery. I know it's only the fluids from the IV and from being swollen from the surgery; my stomach is looking like I'm a good six months pregnant right now due to all the swelling. But I did get on the scale today and it is down to 275 lbs so now we're moving in the right direction. Good. The Doc told my parents I was strong; well damn it I guess that's why I feel pretty ok. I really don't have much pain at all, just can't move around as fast and still need assistance with getting my food and showering.  I found out today that my best friend who lives with me will be moving, she was offered a job in North Carolina , only thing she has to be there by the 25th of next month. To top things off my boyfriend and I are still on very rocky ground, so I've been depressed out of my mind. My best friend drives me everywhere we need to go, and she's great company, she’s part of my family, more than a very good roommate. This saddens me to know she will be gone, and I've been crying and crying, it worries me because when I cry I can feel my staples pulling, and instead of crying I just try to whimper. Right now I feel frustrated too, very frustrated that I can't eat. It's not that I want junk food or anything like that, but my fruit, eggs, and coffee is missing from my morning. I am not sipping on anymore freaking broth, I will throw up! I haven’t eaten much today maybe 3 ounces of broth some apple juice, and an icy.  I see Dr. Sapala in the morning for my post-ob visit; he'll put me on full liquids, just adding oatmeal, cream of wheat, grits, creamed soups, and sugar-free pudding. Yippie, I just don't care if I eat anymore, it's a losing battle. Just want to get out of whatever phase this is because I’m having a hard time dealing with things. In addition to this I noticed I’ve been having nightmares. I don’t know if they are related to the medication. I usually take the pill and go to sleep and you know what, it night or day, I have these bad dreams. My good friend Lorraine told me to place a bible under my pillow when I sleep; it seemed to have worked last night.

 

 

I want to thank all of you for you get well wishes and prayers; they got me through surgery and now helping me to get through this recovery! I will answer all emails a little at a time. When I’m on my Happy Meds. Smiles 
Love ya OH Family 

Surgery Day 1-22-08: I make it to the hospital at exactly 12:00p.m. My surgery is scheduled for 1pm. I joke and laugh all the way there with my best friend Regine. She has been the absolute best from day one. God knows what I would have done without her. I am registered and go right upstairs where I change. My Mommy and Daddy make it just in time. (YES, I still call them Mommy and Daddy, go figure..lol)  My dad tells me no matter how much weight I gain, my face always remains small. Dad, are you for real???? I have a big pie face. Never the less we all joke while my vitals are being taken. Dr. Sapala came in to talk to me for a few and he had Smalltalk with my dad about the freaking GIANTS….okay yeah we all know that they’re going to the super bowl, this is my day…ughhh!!!LOL it was ok though it cut the tension, because at this point I was shaking in my pants. My boyfriend is in traffic court so I don’t get to see him, but he came over last night and held me all night. He promises to be there when I wake up from surgery. My IV is placed and of course my vains are so small it's hard for them to get it on the first try or even the second. Ugghhh! My other friend John is running late, doctor is waiting for me in the OR, damn, black people never on time!!!LOL, so yes I delayed my surgery 15 minutes waiting for him, just to say goodbye. He makes it and I have a chance to say goodbye. My mother bowed my head and prayed over me. I said my I love “yous” and my “good-byes” I got my ass on that table and that’s when it hit me like a ton of bricks. The surgeon went to visit another patient while they all waited for me in the OR, the other two doctors were talking about ……yes the freaking Giants again! LOL, the anesthesiologists was the best, she said look at these men, talking about the Giants, do you like football, I told her no, and she said that makes too of us. They suck!!!! One of the doctors wanted to know what we were talking about, she snapped back jokily, we’re just doing some female bonding, and winked at me. She was the sweetest! I started shaking and when I heard the nurse counting the surgical instruments and saw them. That scared the crap out of me, the doctor came in said some words to me and said I’m going to do just fine. My anesthesiologist told me to close my eyes and take a well deserved vacation to anywhere in the world. I took a deep breath, closed my eyes, and got on the plane, and waited for the anesthesia to kick in…                                                                                                           

Suite 5618 1-23-08
I make it to my room the next day, January 23, 2008 Very beautiful hospital, almost like an executive suite, now the pain was kicking my ass, making it hard for me to turn in bed. Thank Goodness for that PCA pump, that was truly my best friend. Honestly I was knocked out of it most of the time. I did get up to walk around and the patient next to me was okay, we didn’t talk much rather communicated through our moans and groans. My Doctor and my nutritionist came to see  me, my boyfriend, my best friend Regine of course, my mommy and daddy, and brother, and friend Margie. I was  pocked, and      pinched, stuck, and gawked (Those damn teams of doctors that would come in and watch and the residents) my goodies were hanging everywhere…that’s how you could tell I was high on meds because I didn’t care. 
Discharge 1-24-08

Dman the surely work fast to get you out quickly. Didn’t I just have open gastric?  Discharge me already????? What about the PCA pump, am I taking it home? What no??? Well thank Goodness my doctor gave me the good stuff or else I would not be typing here. I also have to take injections heparin at  home. My boyfriend comes by and stays with me until it is time to go home. Discharge takes about four hours…ughhhh   He washes me up, dresses me, and takes me home. I’ve been popping those pills like candy, well not popping them, Regine crushes them in my juice as the doctor recommends. Regine is my ANGEL….thank God for her!!! To Be Continued…

 

 

 

 

 

 

I want to take this time to thank all of you that I communicate on a daily basis; I thank you for your words of encouragement and support. I thank those of you who I communicate with from a distance, and those to which I speak to once in awhile. I thank you for being candid with your stories and inviting the OH family in.  I thank all of you for sharing a little piece of your lives to help me see the whole picture in my life. You are all an inspiration for me, and I thank those who have not had surgery but share the same feelings and aspirations as I do. Thank you OH family. SEE YOU ON THE OTHER SIDE! MOVE OVER, “I’MA COMING!!!

 

SURGERY DATE 01/22/08

 

 

Selected the butterfly QUOTES which I think are intriguing some of which represent my metamorphoses.

 

 

The butterfly counts not months but moments…~~Rabinhranath Tagore

 

 

 In nature a repulsive caterpillar turns into a lovely butterfly.

 

 

Just like the butterfly, I too will awaken in my own time.  ~Deborah Chaskin

 

 

"There is nothing in a caterpillar
that tells you it's going to be a butterfly."

~~Anonymous

 

"We are like butterflies who flutter
for a day and think it's forever."

~~Carl Sagan

 

"Just when the caterpillar thought the world was
over, it turned into a butterfly."

~~Unknown

 

"I only ask to be free. The butterflies are free."

~~Charles Dickens

 

"How does one become a butterfly?" she asked pensively.
"You must want to fly so much that you are willing to give
up being a caterpillar."

~~Trina Paulus

 

 

Dianne

 

hunky Big Girl No More

Thanks Hun for taking the job of looking  over me!

 

Sigh.... I don't know what it is. I think it could be the date of surgery drawing nearer. I'm scared to death! I can't take pain and I'm like a little girl when it comes to pain. I think being in the recovery room did it for me. My stomach has been in knots and I've been thinking about it really hard as of lately. I think it's  going to be the worse pain ever!