Update

Dec 23, 2011

I went to the doctors the other day. I asked her to put me back on my antidepressants. It’s not that I am depressed I am more in a funk of overwhelming anxiety and a feeling of control loss. It’s basically taken  over my body lately. With everything going on with TJ (my son who is 13) he has epilepsy it seems as though at the point where I needed to get some sort of relief. I have been on medication for mood on and off for years. I was lexapro which I thought was the devil when trying to wein myself off of but in reality it really saved my life at one point. Anyway, I stopped taking everything when I got pregnant and then I am just now moving away from nursing so I a m able to take my medication again- and I need it. Day 3 and I already feel better. Little stuff that used to bother me which shouldn’t have doesn’t and overall I feel a lot better. I don’t feel weak for going back on the medication. I have a bitch disorder so I need to take care of it. LOL My weight flucuates 10 pounds either high or low. Right now i am high because of the damn holidays but for the most part i have kept my entire weight off which makes me feel wonderful. I see a lot of people who i know who have had this surgery and see them now and they have put almost all of their weight back. i refuse to do that and go back there.

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