Joe M.

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So, went to my first support group thingy on Monday night.  It was an excellent group, lots of very cool people with great insights into life before, during and after surgery.  If you're in the Charlotte, NC area I highly recommend the Presbyterian Hospital group.

Everyone seemed terribly impressed with my weight loss so far, which was nice.  We even talked about it a bit.  I said that while the number is large, 136 at the time, I still mostly felt like I did before.  Ok, not exactly and definitely not physically, but my head still tells me I’m tubby...or should I say tubbier?  You know, sometimes I still stretch out shirts and do all the same things I used to.  It’s kind of weird actually.  Even with the pictures I have posted here, I can see a difference but at the same time I can’t really.

 

I started taking guitar lessons again.  I’ve been playing (sort of) for 21 years and I started lessons again…don’t know how I feel about that really.  Anyway, I have no idea what the hell I’m doing.  It’s good that now I’m playing more, but that raises all these weird issues with me that nobody really wants to hear about.  Long story short, when I don’t play I want to and when I do, I don’t.  Is that psychotic?

 

We’ll see.  I guess not analyzing, or over-analyzing things so much would be good.

 

Happy Wednesday.

so down to 302.something.  i'm getting close to a big milestone for me.  i can't remember when i've been under 300 so i'm actually excited to see it again.

my wife and i went out and bought bikes this weekend...$79.00 @ target and actually went for a ride last night.  we were like a couple of kids, what a goof.

so i think i have issues...food issues.

duh!

i'm close to five months out and doing very well.  i seem to be hanging out around 310 but i'm sure that will pass. 

i guess i'm still a little hung up on portions sometimes.  i want what i used to have but at the same time i don't, if that makes any sense. 

also...

i had the surgery to be "normal" but sometimes i feel like the way i'm eating now is abnormal, and that i'll never be normal...but what is normal really right? :)

wierd stuff really and when i think about the alternatives to my not having had the surgery, i really don't have much to bitch about.