what the hall have i been doing?

May 13, 2009

hey guys!!! damn i miss all my oh family. I have been moving three times in one year! i switched hospitals, boyfriends and cars. I even went down in sizes! I have been very blessed but also very stressed. I guess u could say i have a regular life right? lol.I have had a few wow moments too. Like one day i was talking to one of my inmates and she was descibing her sister to me and she said "she is built like you, she is not fat, just a little above average and she is also, very pretty." I was like "huh?" my whole fat little life i always heard "oh, i have a (insert random family memeber here) like you -very big but she has a pretty face".....jackass thats still NOT a compliment. But anyways and this one time (in band camp...) my mom and i were shopping and i saw these really cute pair of whit jeans but the biggest size they had was 14. Well i really wanted them so i took them just to see how much more i needed to lose to be able to grease up my fat arse and squeeze them on. Well when i put them on VIOLA! not only did they fit BUT i didnt have muffin top (although i must say the top is the best part of a muffin right?). I was so excited i modeled them for my mom. I couldnt believe i have gone from a 34 to a 14. I still have psycho issues with male attention though. I have just learned how to deal with it better. It still makes me uneasy and self concious I just have to keep reminding myself its a positive thing and not to get defensive. Ok well i huess i am done for now but please write me sometime guys i miss hearing from you!

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