6-28-11

Jun 28, 2011

Taking it easy had a bit of an upset tummy all day and night yesterday so I am doing liquids today and baby my band.Guess it was  a little bug but I still feel kind of tender so i am takng it real easy.  I am also gonna up my liquids today as well. WEll I am down (and up and down) the same 3 lbs since my fill but I think it is a fluid thing. I will be glad to see them go for good!!!! LOL I am such a water magnet.Hahaha :D  It is really hot and humid here and I am bad to retain water then the weather is like that.
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6-20-11

Jun 20, 2011

Got my fill on Friday ! I can feel it . I had some issues moving onto mushies afterwards and got irritated but all seems to be better today.:) The appt went well and I have pretty much maintained my wt since being there last time! YAY :) 
That is wonderful since it was a few days before the start of my TOM and I know I was carrying a little water weight. I am also thinking the whole getting irritated yesterday was partly due to it being right before my TOM. I think I was swollen from the fill and tight from TOM and so it was just a rough day. Glad to be doing better today though. I am ready to get back to losing weight again. ONEDERLAND here I come !!!! :)
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6-16-11

Jun 16, 2011

Going for a fill tomorrow :) I need one badly so I am looking forward to getting in there and getting the wt loss amped back up. I have noticed I get hungry sooner than usual and can eat a little more some days so I think it is time. Also I have not had one in quite awhile. I always weigh in at about 5 lbs higher on the surgeons scale than at home so I have gotten used to that but my body LOVES 210 and is hanging out there and I cannot remember if I was that weight or a little under when I was there last. I hung out at 205 ish for a very small time. So I hope I do not go in and it appears I have gained a crap ton of weight.LOL I know I am up a little but have been maintaining so I am not really worried as I recently bought (a stretchy) pair of 14's !!!! Woohoo shorts for the beach next month. YAY !!!! I am excited. I cannot remember when a 14 would fit me. :D 
The bipolar stuff seems to be under control right now which is great and I am doing well with meds. They cause a little weight gain at times with water and I am due to get my TOM this weekend so this is the wrong time of the month to be weighing in hahahaha ....oh well I wanted to get the fill and let it kick in if it needed too and get used to it before we leave for the beach middle of next month. Soooooo.... I'll report back tomorrow after the fill  !!!!
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6-6-11

Jun 06, 2011

Well nothing much has changed lately so I have been slack about my blog . I am holding steady at around 210 and have noticed I can eat more lately. I do have a fill appt. next friday so that is good.:) I am hoping that will kick start the weight loss again.
My Bipolar is acting up right now and I am struggling with depression and mood swings.:(  I am going to have to get better about taking my meds . I am not good at that at all. I HAVE to get better at it though so I can stay stable and not have any more serious issues. Ughhhh. Spring/early summer is my bad time I have a history of becoming manic around this time of the year. So I am always cautious when things start going down hill this time of year. The whole medicine thing is not helping though. I am back on them now and plan to make it a habit to stay on them. It is something I just have to do. But waiting for them to kick in is no fun. That should be my lesson here. If I had not stopped taking them regularly I probably would not be in this spot.
Oh well gonna try to fake til I can make it!  Gotta keep on going and try to stay one step ahead of this black cloud following me around.
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5-22-11

May 22, 2011

It is a beautifl day here in NC . I am thinking I am going to go sit ot and get a little sun!  Things have been going well .I of corse have been tight the last few days because of my TOM but hopefully that will be ending soon . I also have not been hngry really at all the last 2 or so days. ( I am not complaining of course lol ) I have had to make myself eat really and even then it has not always been a whole meal maybe just a few bites. I stay full really long too . I have tried to make sure that when I do eat it is protein. :) I would love to lose a few lbs . We are going to the beach in July with friends and I would like to be right at or nder 200 by then. Phleeeeeze ???? LOL I have gotten as low as 204 but always go back to 209-210.:(  The 204 would be typically after doing liwuids after fills or what not so that might be my dehydrated, underfed wt.lol I am starting to think my body LOVES this wt and is not gonna budge. Oh well I am gonna keep on trying. Maybe I should look up one of those plateau busting diets and try it ? UGHhhhh.... I am thrilled with my success so far but now I am wanting to see a little more.... just a few lbs here and there. I did not go into this wanting to be skinny or thin or whatever. I just wanna look and feel better which I do but now I am getting greedy and wanting to see more!!!! LOL I know most of the not losing is on me so I am not upset abot it. If I was more diligent I would be smaller probably. So I admit it is all on me.:) That is ok though cause I can always amp it p and start losing again. I am just being lazy right now. hahaha. I also need a fill so that might be part of the no losing thing. I was too tight after my last fill so I am a little hesitant about getting one....like what if this one makes me too tight again ? I know it probably will not as I have lost inches since then. It was several months ago and I have gone down a whole size since then. Which is weird the scales do not neccesarily move but I am wearing smaller stuff. OK.... whatever .... I will take it :)
Ok I was just feeling chatty and stopping in to catch up going to soak up some sun !!!!
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5-19-11

May 19, 2011

I have PMS and  did not sleep last night ( could not remember if I took my ambien and did not want to take another one if I had:(  ) Spider in my kitchen this am (deathly afraid of those) ate some bacon because I was starving and a pc got stuck for awhile so I had laid back down and then just said screw it and got back up. The bacon did go down though!  UGHHHHH.... this is going to be a looonnngggg day!!!! LOL   I am drinking a cup of coffee and hoping for a turn around or at least a do over.LOL  I do think that all my PMS water weight has left becasue for the past two days I have been peeing like crazy! YAY for that.hahaha
Otherwise nothing is really new for me. I think I am calling today to schedule a fill for about 2 weeks out . I think I am finally ready after my unfill awhile back.
You would never know it now I get SO tight around my period and when I ovulate . I know TMI but the girlies might want to know this stuff. :D     I am tight today so for the next few days I will take it easy and do alot of liquids and really soft things. I always have lots of heartburn around this time too .:(  
OK enough bitchin I am going to try to do something constructive with myself and maybe try to squeeze in a little nap later  ;)
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5-14-11

May 14, 2011

It's my BIRTHDAY !!!! YAY !!!! I am the big 4-0 today ! I feel great about it though and went today and used my 50% Old Navy coupon to buy a pair of good butt jeans in a size....16 !!!! I have not worn that size in well over I'd say 18 years .:) Woohoo !!!! We are going out with friends tonight to celebrate and I am so excited :) I am gonna get all dolled up and hit the town. I am enjoying a celebratory glass of wine as we speak and look forward to sushi and maybe even a little bit of dancing at the club ;)
So .... off to get ready !!!!
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5-11-11

May 11, 2011

Yesterday was my 1 year bandaversary!!!! I am thrilled with my 60 ish lb wt loss and know in my heart it could have been more if I had been a little more dedicated.    I look forward to more loss in the future and am so happy with my band!  I am considering calling for a fill appt next month after having my unfill  a cpl months back and giving it itme to settle. I think I need one and so we will see how it goes!  So happy with my band :)
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4-20-11

Apr 20, 2011

Finally got my period yesterday !!!! Whew I have been a holy terror lately.  LOL . I was up yesterday but pee'd all night lol and was back down this am! Been putting along . I am off course tighter right now b/c of my TOM so I am taking it slower than usual.  Just checking in mostly doing well. I need to get my a$$ out and do some walking in this fine weather we are having. That would help huh? Hahahaha I am gonna work on that. Today though ,my goal is to flood my body with water.As much as I
 can hold . I want to work on my hydration.So that is my goal for today.:) So far so good ! Oh and get a new avatar pic of me. That one is old !
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4-14-11

Apr 13, 2011

I am dealing with a little anxiety and depression . It is nothing new for me I have been thru this off and on for a long time. It is also past due for my period .Wish it would show on up .Things usually even out some after it arrives.(TMI ) Anywho.... today I am just going to try to be good to myself and be patient and RELAX a little!
Also on tap I am not going to let myself be triggered into negative posting situations !
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