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Finally, I am under 200 lbs.....195! Haven't seen that since high school. I am so glad to see a one instead of that two first. I am looking to lose another 50 lbs, but it's been difficult being that I'm unable to exercise like I would like to and need to. I have not been able to do any muscle training because I tore a muscle in my stomach area early in  the summer. Not to mention the health problems that I'm dealing with unelated to weight lost or gain. I had to have surgery earluer this month as well. I am waiting to recuperate and get back in the gym. I am looking for that less 50 lbs gone forever.

It's my birthday and I got a great present....another 11 pounds gone forever!!!!! I had started to get worried because I had not lost any weight from 2 to 4 weeks post op. My clothes however, were getting bigger on me. Still, I wanted to see the scale go down. Now that I'm 5 weeks post op....finally it's gone done! I am starting to get compliments of the weight lost. People say how my kneck is getting longer. I am so glad it's going down and I look forward to being at a place I haven't been since high school which is under 200 lbs.

Wow it's been 3 weeks since my surgery. The surgery itself wasn't as bad as I thought. The staff was so attentive to me and my husband and my son were there at every step. I am so grateful because my husband has been taking care of EVERYTHING for me. He took 3 weeks leave to be home with me and he did a wonderful job. I love him so much. My son was great too with helping me up and down the stairs and in and out of our truck. (Thats my "Booman").
I finally feel like I am ajusting to this new lifestyle. I went to the doctord for my weigh in on Monday and I am still 238 which is no different than when I went in 6 days after surgery. I am greatful for the 26 pounds I lost then, but expected to have lost more. They told me I'm doing perfect and they were not expecting me to have lost more weight but inches. I guess I just need to be patient. I'm so afraid of not losing this weight as usual even though I have heard so many stories of people losing so much post op. 

They also told me I can eat more of a variety of food now. I was told to try toasted bread so I came right home and had me a piece of a piece of tuna sandwich.Even though I have never liked nuts, I bought peanuts (gross!!!) for protein, but almonds I prefer more. Still trying to get in enough liquids with at least 30 oz. of water, my two popsicles a day and diluted juice. That's it for now, hope all is well.

Today is the day before my surgery. The last few weeks I have been nervous and so has my husband (more so than myself). I believe this is right for me regardless to what others may think. I haven't told anyone with my own family or friends back home in Seattle. Of course my husband is fully aware. He is so supportive and has been with me to every appointment to ensure this would be right for me. I love him so much! He was upset to find out he couldn't be in the room during my suregery (lol). My son knows I am having surgery but not exactly what for. He's 18 and into his own life. He just wants to be there with me during surgery as well. My friends and some of my husbands family and some of my church members know. I decided not to tell people back home especially the members from my church there because one of our members did not have a good outcome just a year ago in January 2006 and unfortunately she never made it out. Therefore, I decided to keep it from them especially my pastors and leaders of the church who. My sister is the only family member I decided to tell because she encourages me and doesn't worry a lot as my mom and dad and other siblings. She supports my decisions and I don't get negativity from her. 

On Friday, December 29, 2006, I went in for the presurgery. I had to get blood work, an ultra sound of my gall bladder (which is fine) and an ultr sound of my legs because of a clotting history (which was fine also).
I don't remember getting the scope at all. I didn't feel any pain afterwards as I thought I would. All that was is I sing and a few days later at church while singing my throught seemed to get a little dry.
 
The past few days of being on the liquid diet has been a little difficult. Now that I have gotten over the sugar withdrawls (I have always loved sweets) now it seems to be a little better. I must admit I have had quick moments of doubts about going forward only because I have felt restricted from eating what I want. Then I think of the out come and know it will be worth it. Yesterday I went through the diet book and remembered this won't be forever. Knowing this too shall pass gives me more ok. I know I will never be able to eat they way I used to and I am all the way ok with that. I have had moments of feeling as if I'm losing something or someone close to me. I never realized until now, I have made food as a comfort. With this realization I am determined not to allow food to control or run me. I am excited for tomorrow knowing I am on y way to a new journey. 

Well, I think this is it for now and I will continue more post op.