Happy Birthday to me!

Jul 30, 2009

So, I gave myself an early Birthday present... a chance at a new life... and WOW!  This year I turn 42 and am so happy and have so much hope for the future!!! I will get to the nitty gritty in a moment, but just have to share how wonderful my other half is... I decided I am not going to miss any of my support group meetings, for nothing.. no how.. even a birthday... figuring its just an extension of the best gift I can give myself... So I asked him if he wanted to go with me, Saturday August 1st - my birthday.  I love taking him since having him learn first hand what I am going through, understanding where I've been and what I have to look forward to has been incredibe in his unwavering support of this Journey of mine... or more appropriately, ours. He immediately said yes.. AND... since its your birthday, how about a romantic night on the coast and a fancy dinner out?  I jumped at the chance and was online figuring out where we could go and what he could order so I could have a few bites, and I absolutely adore the Ocean and Beach... truth be told - no place else I would rather be.  So just had to share... Can't wait!

So the last few weeks have been good and frustrating at times.  The good times I am able to eat and everything stays down and I feel great and have so much energy that its unbelievable.  On the bad days, two bites and its a race to the bathroom to throw it up.  Frustrating because I could eat something fine yesterday, and look forward to eating it again today, but No Go Joe.  And smells are the killers for me.  Two bites and sometimes the smell of whatever I am eating does me in.  So, I try to not be frustrated (hard sometimes) get the food out of my sight/smell, and wait awhile before going to Jello, or Unjury, or Sugar Free Popsicles, Yogurt or Banana... and all is well.  The frustrating part is just not knowing what or when its going to happen.  I don't feel bad, and am keeping up on my protein, getting enough calories and staying hydrated, and my energy for the most part is still going strong, but I write everything down and so far my doctor's say its normal. 

In some ways, I am glad... not sure if "glad" is the right word, but the first couple of weeks out I could eat anything, and was wondering if they did anything while they were in there... frankly, it was scary to think that it was so easy.  Well its not, and I am glad.  Being sick is really keeping me in check with what I am eating, how its prepared, and having never been a picky eater before, now and for a good reason... I am okay with it.  Never liked throwing up before, but now (not that I like it) its a relief and when something doesn't agree with me its the only thing that makes it better.  At least I am glad to know that there is an abort button and I don't have to feel bad for a long time.  But the goal is always to listen to my body and stomach and nose and not get to that point.

Lastly, on exercise... WOW WOW WOW... I am loving it.  Ive been swimming, and walking, and doing exercise videos at home with my weights.  I used to hurt so much afterwards, and the hurt is very minimal now... just the old feeling I remember.. the wonderful endorphins and energy that lasts for a long time, and the feeling of accomplishment.  Funny story, Ive been spending lots of time at my parent's home - Dad's retired and they have a pool in their yard!  They live at the top of a hill on a circle... my personal trainer, aka DAD, had me doing laps... down the hill then up the hill... down the hill then up the hill.. 4 times is a little more than a mile.  Dad was always working and the quality time and exercise with him has been priceless... and spending time with Mom has been pretty wonderful too.  But next week... its back to work!

Im excited to get back to my San Francisco, high powered, albeit stressful job.. and all the wonderful people I work with.  For the most part everyone has been so supportive and it will be great to be back in the fold.  Plus, had to chuck most of my work clothes because they were too big, and I bought a few very nice, very stylish pieces and some stylish shoes that I can't wait to wear and WOW everyone!  Plus they make me feel so good... so accomplished.  Dang!!! ...  that Harper's Baazar for reigniting my love of high designer fashion... I better get my butt back to work.. because I have very expensive tastes!!!   More musings on fashion later... Just feels so good to see things in magazines and translate it to my own personal style! 

All I have to say in closing... this post at least... Is never stop dreaming and reaching for your goals... because there is no time like NOW!

With all my love,
Rachel

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