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I thought my weightloss would go so fast but it is taking a long time. Right now I am 219lbs and hoping to get to 215lbs by Labor day.

I thought it wasn't going to happen and it took long enough but today I got on the scale and it said 228lbs. I am so happy now my goal is to get to 220lbs by 01/07

Thank goodness. I am down to 234lbs now. I have have dropped a few other things besides pounds. If anyone is reading my posts; I stopped talking to the girl that asked me if I would love to go for a run with her. I think she was betting that I wouldn't lose my weight but since I have I think she bitterly disappointed and started attacking me in many different ways. The only things she ever said regarding my weight was that she didn't think I could lose another 30lbs. Then she tried to get me to eat alot of junk but that God for the surgery because I could always say no. She has no idea that I had weightloss surgery and I am glad that I never confided to her. As soon as I cut her out of mylife my weight started coming off like nothing. I am nicer to my husband and I just don't feel stressed. 

I have learned in this weightloss journey that  some people just don't want to see you happy and healthy. They want you to be in a position where they can put you down all the time so they can make themselves feel better.

It has been too long since I posted here but I guess I got busy with living life. I walked a 5k yesterday with my family  and it was great. I would love to do it again but I don't think my hubby would agree but it was wonderful. 

Last week I was up and down in my weight and still am. I hope it evens out. I was down 239lbs but then I went back to 241lbs and then 243lbs. I had a weird dream the other day about my ex (he use to pester me about my weight; he even stop speaking to me at one time) well he saw me and said that I looked really fat. I just jumped right out of bed on got right on the scale. Thank God he is my ex; couldn't be married to that forsure.  

Over all, life it pretty good and my family is off the couch alot more so that is a big plus in my book. I just need to start back losing again for my own peace of mind. I am starting to think that I will be the one this doesn't work for.

I am now down to 254lbs and in a snugg size 21. I am happy but wondering how can I lose 30lbs by June. I really need to get down this weight. I am returning to Barbados around that time and I want to look really good.

So far I have lost 41lbs; 22lbs of which were lost before the surgery. I am happy of course but wish I could lose a bit more. What I can say now is: this surgery is working for me. I still have a ways to go, right now I am fitting into a size 23 all the way from 26/28. 

Give God thanks because is mercy endureth forever. Bless up!

The surgery is over now and I am still recovering and trying to learn how to eat. Most of the time I don't know what I should be eatting at all. I am tired of eatting the same stuff all the time but what can I do right. I have lost by my calculations 38lbs so far since I last weighed but I lost 22lbs before I had surgery. The liquid diet really works and if someone had told me about it before I had the surgery maybe I would have tried that instead. I don't have alot of energy considering the amout of weight that I have lost but I do exercies and try to keep moving.

Come this summer I want to be in my home country in the Caribbean and therefore I need to look as hot as possible. I need to lose 100lbs by then inorder to look great so that people don't laugh at me. I know I should not care what people think but it is just normal for me to consider these things.

Sometimes I throw up for unknown reasons and I just about scared to eat anything unless it is fish sticks or mashed potatoes.  At this point I have mixed emotions about the surgery: I know it is something I needed to do but sometimes I just want to be normal. 

I have been so happy about my weightloss that I started telling relatives about it and one of them had the gall to say that I could not have lost weight must have came from my breast but wait until they see the new me they will eat their words.  Comments like that push me on to keep doing what I am doing and let me know that I made the right decision in having this surgery. I could have never lost this weight on my own and that is pretty much a proven fact in my life.

For anyone reading this blog just keeping on pushing.

It has been sometime for me blogging only because I have been focused on this liquid diet. It has been hard but I only have a few more days to go. I plan on keeping busy this weekend so that I don't think about the surgery. I am also feeling some panic because of the reality of getting this surgery. I will soon be on the loser's side for good. If any reads these post keep the prayers coming.

I have not blogged here for a while because I have been really emotional but determined. Here are some of my post from the boards:

Post Date: 11/13/07 9:04 am
I just got off the phone with the hospital that I will be having the surgery with just to find out that they can't move forward. Guess what that old surgeon's office is holding me back again. I can't believe this keeps happening to me..I feel so sad right now. In all the time that I asked to have my case transferred to another office they still never called the insurance to cancel the authorization. I called them and of course they gave me their don't care attitude. I think I might be depressed as a result of this surgery. I can't take it anymore. Please I need some positive words because I can't stop crying


Post Date: 11/13/07 9:21 am

Thank you for your reply, before I really started crying I did that I even tried calling my case manager. They said they need to have the old office call in to cancel. I have been through so much with that office and still I am not rid of them. I don't feel like I want to go on in this fat body anymore. My son is embrassed to be seen with me and I took it easy because I knew by the end of the year it was going to be better but with this hold up I don't know when it is going to happen. I don't know if this a sign that I don't deserve a better life or what. My head hurts and my eyes are puffy because I just stop cryingPost Date: 11/13/07 9:27 am
I called the insurance and then I called the office again and begged them just to pick up the phone and call. I actually begged, I don't know what else to do. I have been fighting tooth and nail to have this surgery. I have had to fight my husband, my mom and most of all this office.. They did so many things to mess me up. They sent my stuff to the wrong insurance , even though I told them about my approval by phone and letter they still didn't give me a date. I asked to have my papers transferred and they told me when they get around to it. I sent them three faxes followed up by phone calls in order to get my papers sent to another office. Still they haven't called the insurance to cancel. Now they say that they will do it when the get a chance.

The new office has been great but this old one just won't go away.Post Date: 11/13/07 10:00 am
I love you guys.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! After the support I was given  here I was able to gather my thoughts and so I called the insurance twice again. The good news is that after many calls I was able to cancel that authorization and now I can continue. I am so happy right now, I know it is still far way from the surgery table but I am on my way.

Thank you!!!!! Thank You!!!

It just continued!!! This day was eventful:

Post Date: 11/13/07 1:25 pm
So if that was not enough, I just got a call saying that purposely left out information from my record. Can you believe this. I am launching a complaint about this office.

I thought it was over and then I got up the next morning got dressed only to find this out:

Post Date: 11/14/07 7:22 am 
Now that old doctor's office is refusing to give me my medical records. I don't know what else I can do. I will sue them if I have to for my records.

I spent that entire morning on the phone with Hipaa, MN Department of Health and Human Services and also the Board of Medical Practice. All of whom informed that this was illegal. I was advised to give the office another call because they should know better and if this didn't work I should file a  complaint. I called my case manager to let them know about the behaviour of this company; she was also outraged and told me she would do whatever she can to help me. In the end I found some resolve:

Post Date: 11/14/07 12:38 pm
After many calls to Hippa as well as the MN Board of Medical Practice and also my case manager at my insurance company I have some resolve. Everyone I talked to has been outraged by the reluctancy of the Surgical Office to give me my medical records. I worte them one last letter informing them that I will take great action against them if it continues. Only to get the reply of "we will speak to our lawyers." How is it that a Surgical Office thinks that their policy is more important than Federal Law. I will be filing a complaint against them whether or not this issue is resolved. 

My case manager as well as the new Surgical office I am working with did everything they could and now I have prior authorization to have the surgery. They will of course review my case but I have climbed one big hurdle. I no longer need the documentation from the prior Dr. but I still will file a complaint against them. They trampled my civil rights and they probably do it to others. I think to hurt someone that is trying to get healthy is unforgiveable

I want this to be noted that they have the only copy  of my Canadian Medical Records. The other offices in Canada have discarded of my records because I have not been a patient for mor than three years. There is no way I can let this go no to mention the money I spent to have those records sent to their office. She of course said why didn't you have them sent to you... I guess this is their form of punishment because I decided to go else where for my treatment. This office has put me through grave emotional distress.
 

I had my consult with the surgeon but I still don't have a date for surgery. I found out the surgeon is going on vacation and I have to be on a 3week liquid dieat before surgery. That is where I am at right now. I am trying to look on the bright side because I really just want a date for surgery.