Coming up on my 1 year surgerversary!!

Jul 25, 2009

I really can't believe that almost a year ago, I began this wonderful journey.  It has been a wonderful ride and I'm so thankful to God for allowing me to take it.  I'm glad to say that a year later, I am just as excited about my surgery as I was on August 11, 2008!!  I didn't know what to expect but my expectations were exceeded. What I have realized is that it is not just about losing weight. We've all done that before. It is about other things like really being able to enjoy and live life to the fullest without being hindered by weight.  I still have some body issues..I look at my self and I don't always see what others see. I really have to do my stats and will at the one year mark and I will post them.  I look at myself and all of the changes are amazing.  People look at me and sometimes do not know who I am.  My husband, who adored me at 286 pounds cannot keep his hands off of me!!  He tells me all of the time that I'm beautiful and I'm sexy and although he said it before, it took on a whole new meaning for me.

But I also realized this, I realize that this is not surgery on my head. I still fight food demons and exercise demons and any other demon related to me bettering myself.  The journey did not end on August 11, 2008 and it will continue.  I've seen what this surgery can do to a person and it's not pretty.  This surgery can change you for the better and for the worse (if you let it).  I know that I have gained new confidence and I'm very proud of that.  Although I have always been a confident person, I am more so now because I just feel better about me.  I'm more involved in things because I know that I don't have to be concerned about being "the fattest girl in the room" and feeling like people are judging me based on my appearance.  I just didn't realize how judgmental people are when it comes to weight.  It's really crazy being on the other side of this journey.  The view is eye opening!!

Since I've had my surgery, I have been instrumental in other people having surgery or looking into it.  At work alone, 3 people have been inspired with one having surgery 2 weeks ago.  I have a friend who just had the surgery 2 weeks ago and she is doing well. My sister had the surgery and is doing well and looking wonderful and I'm glad that I was able to inspire others.  Now I just want to continue to do well,, not just for myself but that others can see that it is worth it and it is possible.

I will be back to post more pictures soon.  I'm not on line often because I'm doing what I should be doing..LIVING!!

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