Frustrations

Aug 01, 2010

Alright so my surgery was on July 26th...It will be a week come tomorrow. I was told I was to be on a clear liquid diet until I saw my surgeon for a follow up...Which is August 17th. In the same breath I was told I will be on this particulare diet for 2-3 weeks...It will be 4 weeks and 1 day from surgery day till I see my surgeon!

It is one week post-op and I do not think I can stomach chicken broth any longer! I barely got breakfast down, I am so tired of it...Clear liquids to me are...chicken broth, water, powerade (no sugar or calories), SF popscicles...What is a clear liquid diet to you?!

I just want something...It's like when you quit smoking or break a habit you feel in your mind that you need whatever it is you are trying to avoid. You tell yourself and you know that you really do not need nor do you want that particular things but you still...crave it!

Well, that is my day today with food! Nothing special just something that has substance. I almost broke into my jars of babyfood today just for a bite, just something to feel in my mouth other then liquid. I am so frustrated with this.

On the other hand I see that I went from 330lbs down to 304lbs as of this am and I am ecstatic! I am so thankful I had this surgery and so proud to have had Dr Uchal do such a wonderful job...But the fact remains I am so frustrated.

I am NOT hungry whatso ever so I know it's in the head, a major change, I knew it would be difficult but I never knew it would be this difficult. Today I have been bitchy...I yelled for no reason and I cried like a baby for a good 30 minutes with no reason to be.

I just hope things get better soon, cause this is truly a rough road at the moment...I need the pavement so I can have smooth sailing!

On another note...These dang insicions are so itchy! The surgeon put steri strips over them then this clear plastic banage so when you do scratch you can't feel it! Frustrating yet again.

Tomorrow is another day.

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