Finally...Food

Aug 15, 2010

Well, on Friday the liquid diet became WAY too much for me and I started eating food. I know I know I should wait and follow my Dr's orders and whatever...but you know what I have so much more energy now and I am more willing to go out and walk or do things. I don't eat alot I keep it right about 2TBSP per meal of whatever I am eating and I mark down EVERYTHING calories, fat, protein, carbs, sugars, etc.

It feels so good to eat food, although I will say a few things about it...

#1 I am definitely still learning what it feels like to feel full with my tiny belly...I have certainly eaten too much at times and feel the pain afterwards but it is a learning process, so I now only take 2TBSP per meal.

#2. I am so guilty of drinking while eating and I know how wrong that is. I am slowly trying to get over that and not drink 30 mins before or after my meal.

#3. Head hunger is HORRIBLE I begged my husband tonight for a bite of his South Side Sub...and I knew it was not on the "to eat" list and I had JUST eaten dinner, I was not hungry but I wanted a bite of that damn sub, and you know what he told me..."NO" just like a great support person to any addict trying to overcome their addiction, he told me I could not have a bite that it was not a good idea. You know what I did...Pouted like a 3 year old! But I did get over it once I realized he was completely right, I went and appologized and thanked him for being strong when I was weak.

This is not going to be easy and I realize that more then ever now, but if I can stop smoking cold turkey I can overcome my addiction to food.

I do meet with the surgeon on Tuesday for my first follow up appointment and I am nervous...That is the other thing I wanted to say... Now that I am eating food, I keep feeling like I will overeat and gain all my weight back plus some again...It is a constant fear in my mind, I never want to be fat again, not that I am skinny but I never want to be 332lbs again, I am liking the 295lbs and I know I will love the 150lbs that will be soon to come.

I signed my family up for a membership at the YMCA yesterday and I plan on going daily even for 30 mins I need to exercise, and with school starting and winter coming I will need to do it indoors, I assume. I am actually very excited. I only lost 36 lbs so far but I feel more comfortable doing things on my own, before I would go nowhere without my husband but today at the bookstore I went and sat beside some older gentleman and read my book while my husband went and looked around.

This new life I have been blessed to have is going to be wonderful! I can't wait to start living it...Well I suppose I am 3 weeks into it by now. Haha. Life is great once again and will only get better!

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