Ramona Thomas
Bad Bad Day........
Oct 18, 2009
Well, I think I am losing it now. This has been the worst day emotionally for me so far. I have cried a lot today. I have lost all of my pateince with everyone and I feel like I am not doing this diet the right way. I am trying to stay within the amounts the doctor's diet suggests to. I have a half an ounce of LF or FF cheese (for the protein), and a few wheat crackers. I have a tablespoon of a baked potato with FF shredded cheese on it. I try to drink as much of the shakes as I can. I have to take 2 of my pills crushed up, so I put them in a half teaspoon of SF pudding. I have popsicles to help with hydration and a decent taste in my mouth. I don't see the point of making soup when I can't have but a tablespoon of it. I am such a picky eater, that it is hard for me. I am losing weight, but today, I actually thought, why the heck did I do this. Why did I put myself through this? My husband has been gone to Afghanistan since April and he is coming home in a little over 2 weeks. I need to get it together before then. I don't want to be a weeping basketcase when he gets home. Please tell me this gets better. It has to get better. I am scared to eat too much because I do not want to stretch my pouch or make myself sick. I feel like I am losing my mind! I am so frustrated. I need good sleep. I need a routine. I am going stir crazy too. I am going to go to our track here on base tomorrow and walk in the fresh air for a while. I have got to get a grip on this. I am just so upset right now.
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Jacksonville, AR
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25.4
BMI
Surgery
10/05/2009
Surgery Date
Jul 02, 2009
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