Getting close to my goal

May 21, 2009

Hi family:  It has been a while since i was last here.  I am glad to see everyone's beautiful and adventurous progress.  I have good and bad.  Let me start with the bad and get the darn stuff out the way.   YESSSSSS, i have been eating everything, meaning, sugary, fatty, high calorie crap, especially chips and dairy queen ice cream and potatoes.  Dam me!.  When I looked at the stuff, i knew i was committing a crime, but i did it anyway, i was like, oh a little ain't gonna hurt.  Well, it didn't hurt but i am quite sure it slowed by progress down.  Even though I have not reached my goal weight (I am 40 pounds short of it), i am still happy with the way i look.  Yes, the bobs are like grandma's favorite flap jacks, but i have accepted that they are me and are a reminder of what i once was.  Anyway, i wonder are there any breast exercises to plump them back up?    Another issue, i don't exercise like i did in the beginning and yes there are places that need to be tightened up, the arms, belly, back and thighs. But i don't particularly worry much about that because, it was not a great issue when they were big as they were.  The other issue, fast food!.  Though shall not eat with thy children ever!. 





They eat at every fast food restaurant and yes, i was right along with them, even if i did not eat a gang of fries, i ate the sandwiches not paying attention to how many calories was included in each sandwich.  Just wasn't really paying attention to what i was doing.  Now that I have time to reflect because i got on the scales last night and to my horror, i gained 3 lbs.  The nerve of me to be surprised.  I acted like what!!! this can't be right.  Then i sat my butt down and was reminiscing on that blizzard, baked potatoes (loaded), double cheese burger, foot long, bags of potato chips and was like girl what the F%*k!!!!. Get back on track.  Tomorrow is my anniversary, i should be happy.  I feel like I failed myself. True I lost alot of weight but i did not meet my goal.  I had to realize, the weight loss don't stop at your anniversary date, it continues and you have to maintain it just like your hair, nails, and teeth.  So now I am not so bummed out. 



Now for the good.  I feel great, good, marvelous, sexy, and happy.  I can shop anywhere except the tiny girl stores.  My feet have went from wide with to regular, I am still working on the breast thing, I am still too far in the alphabet but being an "I" is not as bad as a "G" and losing inches is really as good as losing pounds.  I feel good when I put on my clothes. I love that the important people in my life continue to support me and compliment me in my progress.  I really feel blessed and wonderful.  Has it all went to my head.  No.  It has went to my heart.  It takes strength, determination and love of oneself to do alter the inside to better yourself all the way around.  My health issues still exist with the exception of the pre diabetes and  high blood pressure.  I still have bone to bone (in my knee) and the thyroid issue, but that ain't nothing compared to going up a flight of stairs and having to rest or sweating profusely when having to walk from your car to the door or having to have a seat extender applied to a belt because you can't fit in the seat or having to knock food off a table when walking by or having to sit at a table as oppose to a booth. 



Now, i am going to get my butt back on track.  Happy Anniversary to me.

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