Razzmuffin
Struggling some
Sep 30, 2010
Okay so I don't write here much, mainly because most days are great and I don't think about it, but right now I have stuff on my mind and feel like spewing, so here goes. I am just over 5 months out and as a whole I feel things are still going well. However, I feel as if I am on the edge of that reality and ready to topple into the abyss of massive suckage. I already know I can eat WAY more than most people at this point. I don't regularly measure, but I do watch what I eat. I eat protein first, avoid most carbs and dont' drink (except a couple sips) during or after meals for 30 minutes. I take my vitamins and get all my protein plus some. The problem is I am seeing myself recognize the problem and ignore it.... just like before. Why is it I can see this and still not do anything about it? I have always been my biggest enemy and obviously that didn't change with surgery. I am still losing at about 2 lbs a week, and I am happy with that. But I still have about 54 lbs to go, which at 2 lbs a week I will reach goal right about the time of my one year surgiversary. But I already know that stalls are inevitable, and if I continue down that unsteady path of eating too big of portions and not exercising, yeah I said it, not exercising, I know that a stall or two are in my future if not a total weight loss stoppage. So what is my point? None really, other than I think I needed to put it out there so I could read it to myself and maybe, just maybe it would help me to motivate myself to do better. I still want to know why sometimes I can eat as much as a cup of food and other times not even a full half cup. Consistency I thought maybe, but it doesn't seem that it matters. Its random. Maybe I will never know. But for today, I am eating a small premeasured lunch, and a couple of shakes, then for dinner something moderate and measured, maybe I can get back on track and help myself out a bit.
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About Me
Collinsville, IL
Location
39.0
BMI
Surgery
04/20/2010
Surgery Date
Feb 08, 2010
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