feeling positive. (just waiting for the other shoe to drop)

Nov 26, 2017

I know i know i should be happy i feel smaller and i see a differnce in my face >  face post on the boards 

but icant for the life of me get that glow that some of the people here have. i think it is becasue i am a slow loser. i just dont seem to be losign as fast as i want. and i can see it beign damaging. my average is abougt 600 calories a day. thats not good. and my NUT has advised to have protein, veg, fruit and carbs. so i am trying to get all that in. as you can tell, at only 600 cal a day that is not enough of any one thing to be healthy. i am drinking more milk again. bt only a cup a day. not a huge amount. but enough. it boosts some protein. not like befoer though. when i was having 3 cups a day. that was a good 26 g of protein. and then a premier shake. but thats not until next week. dont want to go back to throwing up. that is the last thing i want

oh and somone packed my scale in the last move. so now i dont have a scale. i know a weight loss journy with out my scale. how to do it? not that the scale was going down anyway last i checked i was heavier than i should have been. i spent two weeks stuck at 250. after being down at 247 at my 2 month weigh in. then last week i was back down to 247. who knows what i am now. i mean it is a mystery. 

i bought new clothes. and i feel that i look lumpy and horrible in them but my famliy are all super pumped about them so i am wearing them. even with the lumps and bumps. 

i dont mean to complain. i am lucky i have no hernias, no side effects othe rthatn the milk and the dumping syndrom (both expected ) 

so i should be happy i just wish i was losing a little faster going down a few more sizes. it seems like in this race i am the snail. not the tortoise who eventually wins. or the hare that starts out so well. just the snail no one notices until she slimes across the finish line hours late. in this case months. sigh

well back to the boards. thanks for listening

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