April 3, 2006

Apr 03, 2007

Well it's been a tough three weeks since I posted last.  I am having a really difficult time staying under 1000 calories.  I am always hungry.  So I have been yo-yoing with my calories and even had in excess of 2000 a few times.  I started running last week for the first time in I don't know how long.  So I decided to increase my calories back up to 1200 per day.  I am more satisfied and with doing that hopefully I won't cheat.  I have not really lost any weight in the last three weeks.  I weighed in this morning at 178 after I ran, so maybe a pound or two and that's it.  

My husband really likes the new me.  He was so worried when I had the surgery that he was not going to like me thinner, because he has always been attracted most to bigger women.   He seems to be more attracted to me than ever now that I am smaller but stick "thick."   He "checks me out" all of the time which makes me feel so good about myself.  I want nothing more than for my husband to be attracted to me and to desire me which was something we struggled with when I was 224 and frumpy all of the time.  Now I dress the part.  

Even though I work from home with him and his business, I still dress up every day.  Sometimes I wear skirts and boots, or slacks and a nice top and other times I just dress in jeans.  But no matter what I wear he tells me I'm beautiful.  And my self esteem is so much higher now that I have lost weight.  My goal is to be 170 by May 1, but I don't now if that will happen.  I have been loosing about 6 pounds a month.  With me running though I'll be in swim suit shape by the summer.  I am looking forward to that!

March 16, 2007

Mar 16, 2007

I went to the bariatric surgeon's office today.  Weighed in on their scale at 182.7.  Down 7 pounds from my vist on February 2.  Not too shabby!  I am doing really good.  She wasn't going to give me a fill, but I told her I can still eat really big meals and asked if she could give me another fill.  That should help speed the weight loss up at least for the next three weeks (since my fills only last that long).  

For lunch I sat down with 5.15 oz of meatloaf, but was only able to eat 3.55 ounces of it.  I can usually eat 8-10 ounces of meat at a sitting so the fill is working already.  It's 1:18 and I've had less than 400 calories so far for the day.

I went through my attic this week (getting ready for a pending move and big spring yard sale) and found two boxes of clothing.  I found more size 14's.  I posted a while back that I was able to fit in 14's but they were really tight.,  Well this week I tried on all of my 14's again including the one's I found in the attic and low and behold, they all fit comfortably.  They're not tight.  So it's official, I am in size 14.  I was in size 18 when I started this journey and they were tight.  So I am doing really good.  Now if only I could exercise and tone up some of this flab around my midsection and arms.  The snow's melting and the weather is getting better so hopefully I will get motivated.

March 1, 2007

Mar 01, 2007

I am having a good day.  I weighed in this morning on my home scale at 184.  That's the lowest I have weighed since way before I had my son.  I am feeling great.  I am so proud of my accomplishment.  I go back to my surgeon on the 16th of the month.  I can't "weight" to see what I weigh in on that day.  

I am going to reexplore the idea of my band having a leak in it.  I am going to ask him to try and remove fluid out of my band.  I am supposed to have 3 CC's in the band.  I want him to take the fluid out and if he can't get anything out then there must be a leak in it.  I only feel the effects of the fills for about 3 weeks and then I can eat a full sized meal at a sitting again.  

I'll post again after that.

February 2, 2007

Feb 02, 2007

I just got back from the 3 week follow-up with my surgeon after my last fill.  So far things are going very well.  He did not give me another fill as I am feeling good and have restriction.  Weighed in at 189.0 today so that's a loss of 5.6 pounds in three weeks.  Not Bad.  I wanted 6 pounds and I was almost there.  

I met with the nutritionist and she said that I can actually cut down on the amount of protein that I am taking in.  That I only need about 60 grams a day.  I've been taking in 75-105 per day.  She said I can decrease my protein and increase my fruits and vegetables.  So I am going to get some apples and start adding some of those into my diet.  Maybe one a day.  I am going to try and stay below 1200 calories per day and see if that helps me loose faster.  But I can go up to as much as 1450 and should still see weight loss.  

I am really proud of myself and my accomplishments.  I wish I had been doing this all along. 

January 12, 2007

Jan 12, 2007

I just got back from the surgeon's office.  I weighed in at 194.6 (1.6 pounds heavier than my home scale), which is 5 pounds down from the last time I was there on October 30.  The sad part is I lost those 5 pounds all within the three weeks following that last visit and have not lost anything since.  

Marcy, Dr. Simon's assistant did my fill today.  She tried to remove fluid from my band and was unsuccessful.  She said what I am feeling is normal, that is, feeling full and satisfied for three weeks after a fill and then getting hungry again and needing another fill.  I still don't think this is the way it's supposed to be.  She was able to get just a hint of fluid out of my band, so she knew she was in the port correctly.  She gave me another 1/2 cc.  I came home and had lunch and felt the affects of the band right away.  I felt full very quickly.  

I have another appointment with Dr. Simon on the 2nd of February.  We'll see how much weight I loose in that time frame.  Hopefully with this fill I will loose like I lost with the last fill.  I want Dr. Simon to seriously consider that my band may have a leak in it.  I don't think it's normal to feel full and satisfied for a few weeks and then for it to wear off.  I'm going to go to the boards after this post and get the opinions of the masses and see what people say.    I just hope that I can break the 190 mark and get into the 180's.  I have not been there for so long.  I hope this fill is what will finally get me there.


December 13, 2006

Dec 13, 2006

I have been really down and out because I am loosing weight so very slowly with my band.  I have only lost about 18 pounds since my surgery July 13.  Mind you for about a month and a half I did not follow band rules and ate whatever I wanted and basically gave up on my band and thought "It doesn't work so why should I bother trying). 

But since November 1, I have been back on track eating 3 meals a day with no snacks, focusing on proteins and veggies.  I had not been exercising, because of my work schedule, but now that I am no longer working again (effective yesterday) I am running again.  I went out today and ran a mile in 11 minutes.

The success story is this.  Although the scale is not moving that fast, I am still loosing weight.  When I started this journey I was in a size 18, pushing 20.  I was a light weight, but I still had a BMI of 40 and qualified for the surgery because of my health.  This morning I went into the attic and pulled out some of my old clothes, size 14.  Yes I still have them.  And lo and behold, THEY FIT!  Albeit, they're very snug, but I was able to get in them.  I am so excited!  I no longer feel down about myself.  I really am making a difference even though the scale is not moving.  
 

 

 

I plan on going in for another fill soon as my appetite has increased and the meals I am eating are getting bigger.  My husband seems to thing I may have a leak in my band because this happens every time I get a fill.  I stay full for a few weeks, eat smaller meals, and then over time, the fill looses its effects.  My surgeon thinks that perhaps some of my initial fills may not have gone into the band as we thought it did.  Because the last time he tried to fill me, it took 5 attempts and he was unsuccessful.  So then he filled me under flouro and it took another 3 attempts.  So at this point I don't know how much fill I have in my band.  If all of the fills went in successfully, I'd have 3.5 in my 4 CC band.


December 6, 2006

Dec 06, 2006

I gained a little weight back over the Thanksgiving Holiday.  I had pie 4 days in a row and started eating snacks again.  It’s taken a little while for me to get back on track.  I had gotten back up to 195 on my home scale (when I had gotten all the way down to 190.5).  I have been back on track for a week now.  Yes, I know Thanksgiving has been over for a while.  Like I said, it’s taken me a while to get back on track.  But the good thing is, in that week, I have lost the weight I gained.  I weighed in this morning at 190.0.  I was so excited. 

 

If I keep up the great work I should get into the 180s this week.  This will be a turning point for me.  All of the previous times I have lost weight I have gotten down to 190 and hit a plateau.  I get there and then I start to self-sabotage.  And last week I was afraid that I was going to do that all over again.  Well this morning I came in to work and there was a huge plate of Chocolate chip cookies sitting on the front desk.  I am so proud of myself.  I resisted them and did not have one.  And at lunch I had my tuna fish sandwich on wheat bread with nothing else.  And I don’t drink until at least a half hour after meals and I drink at least 8 glasses of water every single day.

 

OK, so I am not exercising, which is bad.  If I were exercising, I’d be loosing a lot faster, I know that.  But with my current work schedule, I can’t seem to get motivated to work out.  But soon, I am going to be quitting my job and helping my husband with his business.  I will have time to work out during the day and will get myself to run three times a week at least.  That’s the goal any way.  Even with it being cold out, I will still do it.  Three times a week would be a really good start.   


November 15, 2006

Nov 15, 2006

Well it has been 2 weeks since my fill.  I weighed myself on the 1st and I weighed 197 on my scale at home.  This morning I weighed 191.5.  That’s 6 1/5 pounds gone.  I am doing so well.  I can’t believe it.  I am soon going to be in the 180’s.  I can’t remember the last time I was there.  I am so excited I just want to shout it from the roof tops.  I am not eating as small of a meal as I think I should be but I am still eating only three meals a day and no snacks, well ok an occasional Oreo to get rid of the sweet craving, but not often and only one when I do have it.  And I am drinking 8 glasses of water every single day.  I have not missed a day yet! 

 

I also want to post something on a more personal note.  I totally love my new married life.  I never realized that I could love someone so much.  I am so happy and so in love.  I am more in love with this man than when I first fell in love with him 4 years ago.  And the best part is he feels the same way about me.  My new husband is such a wonderful man.  I cannot believe that I am so lucky.  I have such a wonderful life a wonderful husband, a beautiful son, a lovely home a great dog and now I am on my way to a newer, healthier me

November 10, 2006

Nov 09, 2006

I am doing great!  I can't believe I was going to give up on my band.  Since I had my fill last Wednesday, I have been following band rules.  I am eating 3 meals per day only with absolutely no snacks in between. I weighed in on my own scale at 197 the day of the fill and this morning I weighed in at 193.5.  I’m LOOSING!!!!  I have only lost 3 pounds in the last 2 months and now I have lost that much in a week.  It feels great!  We went to see my husband’s family yesterday.  I have not seen most of them since August and a few of them since my wedding and all of them commented on my weight loss.  It was great!  I don’t see the difference, but others have noticed it.  It was wonderful.  I am on the right track now, finally.

 


November 4, 2006

Nov 04, 2006

I just had my fourth fill under flouro this week.  Dr. Simon tried to fill me on Monday and was unsuccessful after 5 attempts.  So he had me go in to the hospital on Wednesday to have a fill done under flouro and it still took him 3 stabs to get the fill in.  He said that he’s not sure now if all of the previous fills have gone in.  If they have I should have 3.5 CCs in my 4 CC band.  I had a half CC the first fill then 1 CC, 1 CC and 1 CC.  I don’t know if it’s swelling, but I definitely feel restriction now.  I was ready to give up on my band before this fill.  This morning we went to Denny’s for breakfast.  I ordered two eggs a small piece of ham and two slices of toast.  I was able to eat about 1 egg, 1 slice of toast and most of the slice of ham and had to stop.  I felt full.  I could have eaten it all, but I felt full and so I stopped.  And here it is 4 and half hours later and I am just now starting to want something else.

 

 

I hope this means I have hit my sweet spot.  I will be so excited and so happy.  I really and truly was ready to give up on my band.  Now I just have to deal with my husband.  Because I was ready to give up on my band, I told him we might as well go ahead and try and start trying to get pregnant after the first of the year rather than wait the full year after surgery.  Now that the band seems to be working I really want to wait and he is upset with me telling me that I don’t want to have kids with him.  I told him he is not being supportive of me.  I just want to loose this weight.  I can do so much in a 9 months if I can continue to follow the band rules with the restriction I am feeling right now. 

 

 

Wish me luck!


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