Finally in ONEderland

Jul 22, 2014

and it feels ONEDERFUL!!  I weighed in on Monday and I'm officially out of the 200s.  I was just thinking. . .It's been so many years since I've been here that it was actually like a celebration for me. It really boosted me!  I'm still riding on a high.

On to the update of what's going on with me. . . .

I find myself getting depressed and somewhat out of sorts when it comes to meal time.  OR, when my family does a celebration of food - a dinner outing, a stop at a nice restaurant, stop for ice cream. . .anything.  It actually makes me feel bad.  I was trying to explain it to my husband but he doesn't get it. . .I'll try to explain it here and hopefully someone will understand my gibber and be able to tell me what it is I'm going through or when it will change.

I LOVE the way I look and feel.  I've never felt so good health wise and I love the way clothes fit.  I went shopping the other day and I was actually amazed and the smaller sizes that I could fit and actually looked good in.  I'm trying to pace myself and not buy too much because the weight is still coming off.  I can sit comfortably in a chair and cross my legs.  Haven t been able to do that in years.  My husband and I travel a lot.  Usually we're late and running through the airport trying not to miss the flight.  Usually I would tell him to run on ahead and let the gate agent know that I'm coming. . .eventually.  But this past weekend, I was running and almost beat him to the gate.  I was winded but not nearly exhausted as I had been in the past.  SO many things are chagning for me.  It's just meal time.  I get so depressed.  The other day, my brother said.. oh hey, let's all meet at Culver's (my FAVOROTE Burger restaurant). . .I instantly felt sullen and withdrawn and so guilty that not only was I not hungry. . .but I just didn't want to go!  This was my favorite place!  Anytime food is mentioned or I see other people enjoying meals that I once enjoyed really makes me sad.  And I don't know if 'sad' is the word. . .I just feel a longing.

Will this feeling ever pass?

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