Ready4Life14
Finally in ONEderland
Jul 22, 2014
and it feels ONEDERFUL!! I weighed in on Monday and I'm officially out of the 200s. I was just thinking. . .It's been so many years since I've been here that it was actually like a celebration for me. It really boosted me! I'm still riding on a high.
On to the update of what's going on with me. . . .
I find myself getting depressed and somewhat out of sorts when it comes to meal time. OR, when my family does a celebration of food - a dinner outing, a stop at a nice restaurant, stop for ice cream. . .anything. It actually makes me feel bad. I was trying to explain it to my husband but he doesn't get it. . .I'll try to explain it here and hopefully someone will understand my gibber and be able to tell me what it is I'm going through or when it will change.
I LOVE the way I look and feel. I've never felt so good health wise and I love the way clothes fit. I went shopping the other day and I was actually amazed and the smaller sizes that I could fit and actually looked good in. I'm trying to pace myself and not buy too much because the weight is still coming off. I can sit comfortably in a chair and cross my legs. Haven t been able to do that in years. My husband and I travel a lot. Usually we're late and running through the airport trying not to miss the flight. Usually I would tell him to run on ahead and let the gate agent know that I'm coming. . .eventually. But this past weekend, I was running and almost beat him to the gate. I was winded but not nearly exhausted as I had been in the past. SO many things are chagning for me. It's just meal time. I get so depressed. The other day, my brother said.. oh hey, let's all meet at Culver's (my FAVOROTE Burger restaurant). . .I instantly felt sullen and withdrawn and so guilty that not only was I not hungry. . .but I just didn't want to go! This was my favorite place! Anytime food is mentioned or I see other people enjoying meals that I once enjoyed really makes me sad. And I don't know if 'sad' is the word. . .I just feel a longing.
Will this feeling ever pass?