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Why The Rush To Loose the Weight?
Apr 07, 2011
Everything about and around this surgery has been an ongoing mental anguishing battle for me. Needless to say, I promised that my next blog would be on a good day and not a bad one.So during my 1.5mi walk this morning (YEP that is what I do everyday for exercise, doesn't sound like much but it's a hell of alot more than I used to do which was NOTHING FURTHER THAN MY FRONT SIDEWALK) I said to myself, you know, life is SO short, I have to own every conscious moment and every choice I make. For instance, I am choosing at this moment to spend my time by walking, this is MY CHOICE, I own it and anything that goes along with it.
So as I was into my walk I was asking myself, why am I in such a rush to loose the weight? Why am I so consumed with wanting the "thin angela" now? What is driving me? Or better yet, driving me nuts? Why can't I slow down and actually enjoy the journey to a better, healthier me?
As I continued, I began to dig even deeper.......I needed to get to the root of this and turn my attitude around.
What I realized so far is this....I need to understand that I am "ok" exactly where I am today. I will never have this day to live over and it is not worth the energy expelled in being angry I am not getting my way RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW.....whether I am what society considers "thin" or whether I am at 221 like I am today, this has ZERO effect on who I am as a person. Who I am inside is beautiful. People love me, I love to be around people. I have wonderful children who need a mom who sees the positive in life and not dwelling on the negative.
Our words have power. If I spend my time complaining, what signal am I sending out to those around me? and better yet WHO THE HELL wants to be around someone who is down all the time? By nature I am a very optimistic person. I always see the glass half full in everything else in life so why not have the same outlook on my WLS?
I have the opportunity TODAY to be a positive person, to do something that will bring good into this world, to make a difference. THE CHOICE IS MINE....
We may be guaranteed ALOT of things in life, but tomorrow is never one of them!!
So while our "outside" is improving day by day, lets love ourselves, respect ourselves SO much to ENJOY and LOVE the very moment of life you are living right now.
