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A wow moment
Feb 16, 2009
I was kind of bummed about having a loss of only one pound this week. I know that it is a loss and every week can not be a big loss, but it can be discouraging and you start to doubt yourself. I find myself wondering for the rest of the week "what did I do wrong?" "what should I be doing different?" "am I eating too much? not enough?" And these moments of self doubt can be so defeating because you find yourself slipping into your "old" way of thinking. The feelings of being a failure and not being able to do anything right, and you start to really doubt if even this major surgery will help you find your way to success. Why do I do that? Why is it that when it comes to supporting others I am able to offer encouragement, yet when it comes to myself I am so cruel? If anyone else said to me "I only lost one pound this week" I would remind them how hard they have worked to get to this point, that the one pound brought them to an all time high of 51 pounds lost, that they look wonderful and that their body must be really starting to respond to this weight loss. In every other aspect of my life I am a glass half full kind of girl, but when it comes to my weight...well that is a whole other story! tsk. tsk.
So I log on and update my ticker (which shows my weight loss from my highest point) then I come over here to OH to update my blog and my weight tracker (which shows my weight loss from morning of surgery). On the tracker page I like to check out how far my BMI goes down as well as how much weight I have left to lose. Now here comes the wow moment...
First thing I notice when I make my one pound change: I now have 99 pounds left to lose. Which is one pound less than one hundred pounds left to lose! Somehow it seems to be such a huge difference to me. Keeping this in mind I go check out my BMI, which is now placing me in the "obese" category. Nothing to celebrate, but when I started this journey I was extremely obese, well I was extremely alot of things. So there you have it. Let it be known that today I am giving myself permission to say "good job Mary, you have worked hard and made significant changes in your life and now you are starting to see the results of that. Keep it up, you are doing great!"
