So close - So far

Nov 02, 2010

Over the last several weeks of doing TPN and eating/drinking I had gained three pounds. Now, that might not seem much in the long run, but a pound a week is pretty significant for me. Normally, my weight will fluctuate anywhere between 1-5 pounds on any given day, but this weight gained seemed different to me because during the week I never dropped back down. It stubbornly seemed to hold on. 

I mentioned the gain to my home health care dietitian and she agreed that my ability to get 100 plus grams of protein in a day might be the cause of the weight gain and as such that my TPN would be reduced to 3 days a week. So on the days I infuse I'm getting approx. 750 calories, which are fully absorbed because they go into my blood stream, and 70 some grams of protein. I still try to do 100 grams of protein on the days I infuse.

I've been feeling like I lost weight and on the days that no one needs to know my weight I stay off the scale. My personal official day for weighing in is on a Wed. I used to do Mondays, which was my surgery day, but it seems like all my weigh in with Dr. Greenbaum are either on a Wed. or a Friday so that is why I use Wednesday.  It also seems to be a good day for me because it's mid week especially because it's away from the weekend foolishness.

So this morning I came downstairs, it being my weigh in day and all and stepped on the scale to see that I'd lost the gained weight and then some. I'm down to 180. Just one pound from being in the 170's. I can scarcely believe it. I'm also just 30 pounds from my 150 goal weight. It seems so close, yet so far.  I am hoping that my body will allow me to continue to drop to get to that 140-150 mark, or hell even lower since I know that there is a little bounce back. Dr. Greenbaum has my goal at 140. It seems pretty far away and sometimes I wonder if it's even doable. I chose 150. It was an arbitrary number that I just pulled out of my head. Actually it was two pounds more than one half of what I used to weigh. It sounded like a good number and I just stuck with it.  I'm hoping to get to that goal. I'd like to be there like by the end of November, but that's just foolishness, however, March would be good. I'm going to try very hard to stay the course and be compliant.

Life is good.

M-out
(ILAMYM)

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