4 Months Post-Op

Jul 03, 2009

 I had surgery only 4 months ago and I've lost 85 pounds!! It is completely unreal. There are times that I don't really believe this is happening. Like I'll wake up and weigh over 300 lbs again. I still don't see myself as someone who weighs 216 lbs. I haven't seen that since I was 20 or 21-years-old. My next goal is to get to 200 pounds by my 6 month point. Then to get to my goal of 160 by my 10 month point.

You know, I was so afraid that I would be one of those patients that loses very slowly and then plateaus out well before my goal. I'd had so many diets fail before that I didn't think this would be much different. I'm so happy that I'm losing so well, but it brings up a whole new set of fears. If I don't reach goal, it will be MY failure. I can't blame this on the surgery. It is obviously doing its job and soon it will be up to me to do mine. That actually terrifies me. I'm not anywhere near goal, but I'm much better off than I was 4 months ago and I don't ever want to go back. I'm determined to lead a healthy life.

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