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I cannot believe that 6 months has already past. I read my last post 6 months ago and remember it like it was yesterday. It was painful, I was depressed and just really down. I am happy to say I have lost 80 pounds, no longer need a C PAP machine, and no other meds need to be taken. I have signed up for water aerobics, snow boarding lessons AND book a cruise for March.I have dropped from a size 24 to a 16. I plan to lose more! My new weight loss goal is 20 more pounds to reach 100 total. I  still get sick every now and again, but it is WORTH everything to have gone through what I did to get where I am today!

Sarah

I had my surgery on Tuesday. The doctor said everything went well. I was in the hosptial until Thursday and now I'm home recovering. I'm glad I did it but I'm also experiencing a range of emotions. It's the little things in life that you take advantage of, like getting out of bed without it hurting. I know this is worth it in the end but it's hard to see that right now becasue I'm impatient when I'm sick or not feeling well. I want to feel better now. Ok enough whining, I just felt compelled to write what I really think and feel for people who are considering it. It does suck after, it's sore and exhausting, but if it were painless and easy everyone would be doing it.

Like many other people on this site, I have struggled with my weight my entire life. Each year I grew another size... then thinking well I'm okay because I'm not such and such size, then the next year I would be that size. I thought about gastric before but it was simply a fleeting thought.

Then it happened, my husband and I were in Chicago on a trip at the end o March. I had a good time because I was with him but I felt horrible. I was mad at myself for not being able to wear what I wanted to. We walked around the Shedd Aquarium and my back killed so I wanted to go back. At the hotel he brought his swimsuit to go swimming as IF I did. I saw some individuals working out while I was waiting for him to finish. I hit an all time low, I thought I'm going to be this way the rest of my life. I've got no control over this... the weight is starting to be MY identity. I was starting to lose track of who I was and my accomplishments because of my weight.

That night I said, I want to look into surgery. He said Okay if that's what you want to do. And I did... I am not better or worse of a person because of my weight, I deserve to enjoy my hard earned accomplishments... and I will control the weight it does not control me! Here is the dates thus far... I was determined to do this... and I got everything rolling really quick. I'm 5'4 and 256 pounds, well now 252 because I'm losing weight for the surgery.

3/28/08 Attended information session at Fairview Southdale
3/31/08 Psychologist Appointment
4/7/08 Sleep Study
4/8/08 Dietian meeting
4/9/08 Started on APAP machine for Sleep Apnea
4/23/08 Met with Surgeon
5/1/08 Submitted to Insurance
5/8/08 Aprroved! Insurance covers 100%
5/9/08 Date set for June 24th!