RienaSoCal
My journey started as a child.. when kids pretended an earthquake was happening when I walked by. When kids threw food at me and when guys gave me their phone number as a joke... It was really someone else's number. I was always made fun of.. but I was smart.. fat girls who don't want to be seen.. they hide in books. I went thru middle school.. FAT.. liking the boy and having the boy write me a letter saying I was a fat pig... and also a very nice illustrated picture of me as a pig eating everything in sight. I turned 13 and an older man.. 22 yrs old was nice to me.. well, a little too nice.. he raped me and I got pregnant.. so now I am 30 and my daughter is 16. Self esteem went LLOOWWW.. I was getting bigger and my heart couldn't take it.. but now I had to live for someone else.. I couldn't just eat myself to death. I met a gentle soul named Kirk Thompson..I was 21.. he showed me a path into Gastric Bypass.. we talked everyday. I finally made the choice.. I was gonna do it.. I tried everything.. even eating disorders. MY family was VERY against it.. they thought I was doing the wrong thing.. taking the easy way out. DUDE!! I am 350lbs by now.. uumm.. there is no easy way out of anything.. not even a pair of pants. I was scared, I told my family I was going with or with out them.. I dont see 60-70-80 year old ppl who are 350lbs.. you die or get thin and healthy.. and damn it.. I had a whole life ahead of me. So.. 10-02-2002..I had surgery in Orange California with Dr.Owens and Dr. Oliak. I woke up.. and I was sooo sore.. but I knew I made then right choice.. a week later I started throwing up my own feces. Like real poop coming out of my mouth.. I went toxic in my bed and fainted.. 911 CAME.. I had a bowel obstruction.. scar tissue developed in my bowels and the poop was making.. but not coming out.. so it had to come out the next hole.. up..up..and out my mouth.. I KNOW.. GGRROOSSS! but It's the truth and I am not lying or sugar coating anything here. So.. I was in ICU for 8 days. They put me in a regular room.. I started puking again.. but weird stuff... sure enough.. my gallbladder exploded.. emergency surgery AGAIN!!! ICU AGAIN.. I swore I knew that staff like they were my family. a few weeks went by.. I got a staph infection.. it was painful and nasty.. I was in the hospital a lot.. many complications... but I promise you from the bottom of my heart.. it was the best choice I ever made. I would go back in time... puke up poop again.. hahaha... I would take the infection.. because today.. I am live.. I can walk the street and not have ppl pretend there is an earthquake.. I can eat out and not have everyone stare at me because they want to see how much I am going to eat.. The only mistake I made was taking too many medications at once and my little pouch couldnt take it.. this was Dec.2009.. I had an ulcer that broke open and burned up my pancreas.. but I am alive and I learned my lesson. I dont have the best story.. surgery wasn't easy.. but it was an easy choice.. because the road I was walking on led me to death... the road I walk on today leads me to sunshine and opportunity. I feel good when I want a promotion.. I found out.. I'm funnny.. I am charming.. and I FREAKIN HOT!!! If I knew that hot thing was under there.. shoot.. I may have done this a long time ago. I can play and jump and not have a heart attack.. I am ME.. the ME I was meant to be.. I may have left a bunch out.. but if you have ANY questions.. comments or concerns... email me.. I will be glad to help
