Rita N.
I have been over weight sence I was 5 yrs old and it has effected my life in so many ways. I had knee problems, back problems, so this made me limited to many things. I quit school at the begining of my 11th grade year. It was really hard for me to make that choice because I had always told myself that I would never quit school. My reason for quiting was basically because of the picking and the fact that I could no longer fit in the desk like normal students. I went through out my school days trying to convense myself that it was going to be ok that what the other students were saying didnt hurt me but it hurt me more then anyone would ever know, and I didnt want them to know that. I just knew that they were awed at how big I was. I mean just talking about it upsets me now. My weight also limited the things I did on a day to day basis from cleaning the house to going shoping or getting a job. My feet would swell really bad so if I went shopping then after just a few minutes of walking and being on my feet my back would hurt so bad that I would be almost in tears and my feet would swell to the point were every step I took my ankels pinched. So Malls, and Big Department Stores were out for me. I couldnt get a job cause it would cause the same thing. I got to the point were I felt like I was free loading off my mom cause I quit school and had no job and I couldnt help her in any way. She told me that she didnt feel that way and I know she didnt but I did and it made me so depressed. I love my mom so much because she accepted me for who I was. I just wanted to do more things with her and for her... I would have dreams of her dieing and me crying blaming it on myself. I tried billion of diets. First I tired a deit pill which made my heart race and that scared me so I quit those. Then it was off to just trying to eat right and exercise. That didnt work cause exercise was extra hard for me. So after that I tired Weight Watchers, I thought I had found the best thing ever my weight came off really fast and I was so happy I found something that worked, well it got hard as the months went on and the weight came back times 2. After that I just gave up I felt like I was not worth anyones time and that I didnt belong on this earth so I might as well die. Well a guy came along and was really intrested in me, it made me feel awesome that someone loved me for me. We dated for 3 months and I lost my virginity to this guy at that point I thought he was the one, untill he just seemed like he lost intrest, and I wanted to know why, thats when him and his friends told me that he was just using me for sex, I cant even begin to explain to you how much that hurt. I kept finding out differnt depressing information for about month after we broke up, things like he thought I was ugly, he called me fat, and that he was cheating on me with my cousin the whole time. So that put me in a state of depression and I didnt care about anything. Followed by that was my dessicon to quit school. Well even before I met that guy I hade been talking to this guy online and he was awesome I had never even begin to think about internet dating but he had done so before and we decided to pursue in a relationship. He lived in Nebraska and alot of people didnt approve of it, but we knew each other so well we talkd on the phone everyday, we sent letters, presents everything. Both of our parents had talked and it was the greatest thing that had ever happened to me. November of 2005 is when I decided to look into Gastric Bypass. So I done all the test and waiting and finally had my surgery June 9, 2006! It was one of the best decissions I had ever made in my life!!
Starting Weight - 442 / Before Surgery Lost - 8pds / Day of Surgery - 434 / 1 month out - 398 / 2 month - 378 / 3 month - 357 / 4 1/2 month - 334 / 5 month - 322 / 6 month - 312 / 1 year - 285
