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So I am finally under 200 pounds woot problem is that I am gaining weight as we speak. I have my period (sorry TMI, I know) and I got as low as 197 but I ma slowly going back up. I lost that weight because we went to vacation and I hardley ate anything.

My hair has been falling out soooo badly! I mean I never thought my hair would be this bad but it really is. I am now taking biotin and I am trying ot get at the absolute minimum 50g of protein in a day (though its usually more)

Sadly with the more protein I take in the more my weight stays the same. I can eat a whole hot dog and bun now which scares me to death becasue I am so worried my stomach has stretched out to its normal size again. I don;t know if it is just becuase I am on the rag or what. It has ben really hard to lose weight lately and I know part of that is my fault becasue ia m not exercising at all. I work in an office and sit on my butt all day but when I get home I am completely exhausted and don't want to go out and work out. I don;t know what it is I just can't seem to will myself to do it.

On a good note my boyfriend of a little over two years asked me to marry him. I said yes. So I anow a very happy (though balding) future wifey of the most understanding and patient man I know. I could go on for pages about what an amazing guy he is through this whole process and I love him more every day because of how he is with me.

I just cannot  get over how much my hair is falling out! just me running through my hands through my hair it  just comes out every where. I was told it should be back to normal in 10-12 months after surgery but its really thin right now and I always had thick hair so this is just new to me. I can see my scalp though my hair I can see a LOT of my scalp its just weird and my pony tail is so thin.

None of that matters though I would always pick this surgery over my hair... though if its doesn't start growing back soon I am seriosuly going to start having panic attacks (okay so i have already had two  becuase of my hair but I don't need more)

BUt I am under 200!... at least until tomorrow :P

I have to slow down my eating and get more protein in and one of these days I need to seriously start working out! really.... one... day... *sigh* there needs to be more time in teh day and I need more energy from somehwere for it.

So it has now been about 3.5 months and I am down a little over 60 pounds. I never though this could happen so quickly I was looking at other people's progress and I knwo we are not supposed to judge our progress by other's but I still did and I never thought i could lose this much weight in so little time.

I still have another 80+ pounds to go but I thin I am doing pretty damn well so far. I still haven't started excersising and I have celulite on my freaking clafs my boobs are turning into moosh but the nauseau from eating is now gone I eat just about anything in small protions. My hari is falling out ALL over the place and hopefully it will stop at the 6 month mark. I am trying to get my protein in but not much luck there.

So yeah... my biggest problem so far are my boobs and hair. I have bought new bras and man are all of my pants loose. as I always say if you are reading this and thinking about getting the surgery... FREAKING DO IT!!!

So it was my two your surgiversary on the 12th and I am happy to say that as of today I am down 40 pounds! woot, still a little worried though cause my weight slowed down a lot this second month. My mom is freaking out as usual becuase she says I am not exercising enough and why am I not losing more weight and this and that... and its like HELLO I am losing weight I am back on solids now so my weight is going to slow down. I don't understand why she doesn;t get that people have stalls and I will lsoe the weight and I am NOT eating like I did before.

my weight just recently has started to come off again like it was plus my friend let me have her eliptical though it makes this awful scratching noise whenever I am on it like plastic against plastic so I keep just walkign around the apartment complex. oh and my mom had the nerve to say that walking is not really exercise! its like WTF?!?!?

ugh! so anyway I am now 228.4 as of this morning coming down from my highest of 272 and the day before surgery 268.6 so yeah I am happy.

I keep hearing about people who lose like 100 pounds in 6 months and I wonder if they were my size before surgery. I know I am not supposed to compare myself to others but it really is hard not to. If you are new at reading this I am 24 right now and I am 5'3.5"

My boyfriend has been super supportive as always and he cooks for me and he encourages me to work out too but in a agood way.

I have a new job again and I have told a couple of peopel at work whats up but I don;t want to have to tell everyone. I just tell them I am watching what I am eating.

My new job rocks its with a big name bank and as soon as I get on perm I will get a raise and all sorts of benefits including being able to work from home. So hopefully in a couple of months you will be able to hear all about that

You know its true some habits die hard. I got on the scale this morning only to find out that I gained weight, all of .6 pounds. Yes I am still weighing myself every day which I know I shouldn’t but at least now I am looking at how much I lose a week instead of analyzing how much I lose every day… well except for this morning.  
  Just barely over a half a pound was ALL that I gained, can it be water or something like that? Yeah sure. But old habits die hard and I can feel a part of me is now utterly depressed/worried. My mind silently goes into over drive thinking oh no what if this means that my weight loss is slowing down this soon or what if I start gaining weight like all the times before and just fun things like that going through my head.  
  As long as I see that tomorrow some weight came off of me I will be fine… if not, get ready for a fun post.

So I go on eggface's blog to find some uber yummy recipes and suprise I decided to go with the beans and brains casserole (a sort of mexican dishe) so I get the onions ready the garlic the beef and my boyfriend is helping. We get the zucchini ready and it all together put some cheese on top of it and bake it for 30 minutes... Just one problem... the recipe said to add all of the othe ingridients... well uh... while the brains (aka ground beef, for us ground buffalo) was there the brains in our head were somewhere else all together.

we completely forgot to put in the beans, the oregano, any salt or pepper... on the plus side though it was still UBER yummy. it just needs something on the side of it becuase it is mostly meat. Oh well better luck next time making it I guess.

So I’m sure I wrote tons about how hard it was to make a decision about which surgery to get and looking back on it I think the RNY really was the best surgery out there for me. Why? You might ask…  

1)      I have (or had) a HUGE sweet tooth, there was hardly ever a day that passed by where I didn’t have chocolate, and if I didn’t have chocolate it was probably because I was stuffing my face with something else sweet.  

2)      I am not a snacker, I never sat down with a big bag-o-chips in front of the TV and crunched on it all night.  

3)      When I ate basically I decided to eat, and I was serious about it! I would grab a “thing” of food (box of cookies, whole large pizza, ice cream) and EAT it, all of it, and then feel awful then do it again the next day and so on, hence me gaining so much weight in a short period of time (like 70 pounds in a year and a half).  

So I think because of the above the RNY was right for me. Oh and of course you lose the most weight and you lose it the fastest compared to other surgeries :D   Oh and another little update, I put on a pair of jeans this morning and had enough room in the front for me to stick both wrists in it! I remember buying these a couple month ago and they were kinda tight. *sigh* I’m pretty happy right now.

I am looking at my weight tracker on OH and I am like awesome I have lost almost 30 pounds and only another 115 more to go to my goal, and then I start adding number together… and I am just like WOW in the end if I get to my goal I will have lost 145 pounds, more than half my weight… even more shocking then that… I would have lost more weight then the entire amount my mother weighs… I would lose what my mom weighs plus like an extra 10 pounds… if this is still not shocking to some of you go try and lift someone who weighs like 145-120 pounds and then think holy crap-doodle that’s what I lost! And that’s what I had been carrying around with me for blank years!

So many good things have been happening lately. I am going to be starting a new job with Citi this month on the 28^th I have a two month training class to go to and then I will be working my butt off, the great thing is it pays an extra 2 bucks and hour and there is opportunity for over time. The not so good news? Its pretty far away (thank god for my Yaris) and I am still a temp so no real benefits/vacation/sick leave. Still though its great because its actually in the field that I am studying for. The crazy thing about all this is that I didn’t even apply for the job. I had a recruiter from a temp agency who saw my resume from almost a year ago call me up and tell me about the position. I will mainly be working with Anti-Money laundering stuff.   The people at MetLife were great about it too (I’m also a temp here) I was worried they would just dump me on my ass when I told them about it but everyone has been very supportive and congratulated me on the opportunity.   Okay so more about the actual weight loss, I am now down to 240.4 pounds as of this morning which means 28.4 pounds since surgery AND 31.6 pounds from my highest weight. I know for a fact I haven’t been getting enough protein in every day though L I need to start doing protein drinks or possibly more meats and fish in my diet. Don’t even get me started with water. It seems no matter what I do water gives me gas pains in my chest and pouch. I LOVE diet ocean spray cranberry juice though that stuff goes down pretty nice.   I’ve thrown up twice (or was it 3) times since surgery all of which was from not chewing enough or just eating too much. I have to retrain myself to NOT take that last bite. Lately I just give it to my boyfriend and he literally finishes it off in a bite or two. One of my goals right now is to weigh less then he does and he is at 210 right now but he has been losing weight too ever since I came home from surgery.   Oh lately as a sweet treat I’ve been eating sashimi style eel WAY yummy and kinda tastes like candy, though I guess not too sweet cause I haven’t dumped at all from it. Other yummy stuff I eat includes baby bell light cheese (SUPER compact and easy to snack on and digest), dan-active light yogurt drink, chicken in a can (yes the chicken of the sea that comes in a can but the chicken flavor not tuna flavor). OOOH and last night I made ricotta stuffed chicken wrapped in a little (low fat) bacon and dipped in BB-Q sauce (also low sugar, Wal-mart or Publix brand) then baked for 25-30 minutes. I made the balls super tiny like the size of golf balls 2.5 of those and I was done for the night, it was almost too much. I get leftovers for lunch today YUMMY!   I am still so surprised that I don’t crave food like I used to before surgery. I don’t have this huge need for chocolate or for ice cream or anything really, the one thing I have wanted lately was Pizza and if I really want that I can make a tortilla pizza. Its just amazing I think how much this surgery changes you. The one time I have really missed eating food was on my birthday. I think if I had a piece of advice for people about this surgery it would be to NOT get it done like two weeks before your birthday like I did. It was the first time I think I couldn’t have cake or anything for that matter. Next year I will be able to have a little something but at the time I was stil on my mushy food diet and couldn’t do anything solid and I was too scared to try anything.   So I guess that’s it really. I lose a pound about every two days or so sometimes more. I really need to exercise more than anything I think. I saw an elliptical I want at Wal-Mart and after we have the new apartment put together I think I’ll probably buy it.   One month down rest of my life to go! I am really hoping to be my goal weight in a year my goal is 125 my surgeon’s is 134. but hey I am only 5’3.5” so I like 125 better :P

The title pretty much says it all. Have any of you seen the Extra Gum commercial where it’s a piece of gum and they are saying how you can “go from gut to a great butt Extra the 5 calorie SNACK”….. WTF? A snack? Since when is gum a snack? Doesn’t snacking involve some sort of swallowing?

 

I don’t know maybe its just me but this commercial pisses me off… gee anorexia anyone? My scrawny friends and I are going to go snack on some gum.. mmmm… tasty, I can almost see my ribs sticking out of my back If I just keep “snacking” on this gum I’ll be 50 pounds in no time!...

 

Okay so maybe that’s an over exaggeration but come on! You are not going to lose your gut and get a butt from chewing gum people! And it is not a SNACK!

So I was 242.8 today on the scale. my goal is to reach 238.6 by Saturday it may or may not happen. Why such and odd number at a strang time? well Saturday will make it exactly a month since I had surgery. I want it show I lost 30 pounds in a month. it may or may not happen if it doesn't then no biggie it will only be a day or two after that it will. WOW 242.8... still super heavy but when  you think that at my heigheest i was alittle over 272 its amazing to me. I was thinking about it earlier this morning and i thought hmmm if I get down to 200 I am still going to have another 75 pounds to go till I am at goal *sigh* BUT! then I thought if I get down to 200 that means I at that time would have lost a total of 72 pounds! kinda crazy... and scary... but it will SOOOOO happen! 5 pounds a week is what I am averaging I know its not like I am going to keep that kind of weighloss up forever but if I could till I reach my goal weight it will only take me 23 weeks before I reach my goal and THAT is nothing! so okay I know it won;t happen like that but geez in a year maybe? I will really be one of those people on obesityhelp with the before and after pictures. :D