Divorce - OK, something is wrong

May 24, 2009

Well, I have been having a really hard time the last few days, and yesterday I don't know what came over me but I lost it more than once.  Anything anyone said to me had me crying uncontrollably.  I was irrational, depressed and a bit crazy.  It came to head when I was in the car with my WONDERFUL husband and he mentioned that he is losing so much weight.  I freaked out, couldn't believe he was saying this to me, all I heard was "NA NA NA, I am losing weight, and I don't have to, and YOU are gaining and had surgery HA HA HA".   I threw off my seat belt and bolted from the car, walking, I don't know where or how (as my knees are still killing me). I didn't have a purse or anything with me.  He got out of the car and easily caught up with me.  As he was walking me back he said that if he cannot even say an innocent remark then we don't have much of a marriage.  I said OK, let's get a divorce and gave him my wedding rings.  Much later, and after several crying phone calls with my sister (who I didn't tell about this) just about my other issues.  My husband and I talked.  What he was trying to tell me is he isn't feeling so good, is very tired, and is losing weight.  He is concerned something is wrong.  I told him, well, if he would have phrased it that way I probably wouldn't have exploded as I had, all he told me was that he was losing weight ... both of us realized that I over reacted and he could have been a bit more sensitive in his phrasing.

Today, even though having the same issues as I have had the last few days, both of us are feeling better, emotionally.  I think both of us need to call our respective doctors to see whats physically going on with us.  We now both realize I am still an emotional mess from the surgery, but a lot less cranky today, as he told me when I was asleep he adjusted "my crank" ... I LOVE HIM!

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