The Spartan Army

Dec 08, 2007

I am on a team at work and our team is named "the Spartan Army" and i have always thought it was silly, but i was thinking about how it has some irony to it because i have noe decided my weight loss is a battle and having the surgery will be my final battle against my weight and well i havent seen the movie 300 but i think the spartans die but they put up one hell of a battle, i will be the lone standing spartan and will win this battle so all 10 trillion of my fat cells that are making my life hell will die!!! 
haha woah it may not make sence but it makes sence to me
oh yea the nutritionist was cool  and gave me some cool samples of protein drinks to try, this is going to be one crazy roller coaster
oh and i also lost 5 pounds!!!! i am now at a 61.2 BMI im almost to my 59 bmi!


I'M NOT CRAZY!!!

Dec 06, 2007

Hey Everyone i went and had my psych evaluation today and great news....
i'm not crazy!!!!!!! YAAAAAAAAY!!!
the psychiatrist even informed me that i dont suffer from depression as we had origionally though!!!!!
I am now on my way to my nutritionist and then well its almost over!!!
wish my luck!!


what a depressing day

Jul 05, 2007

i got my letter from my insurance company today, they got back to me very quickly it took a week. and well it wasn't good news no matter what even if you are dying they will not cover anything that has to do with obesity or even morbid obesity. like not even medicine or whatever else. it makes me mad like seriously i wish the people that choose my insurance coverage in my company were able to live in my life for a day and see what its like to be stared at or have every ounce of their body hurt because of their weight.
jerks
im mad
so now i decided i am going to apply with a company that my sister works for that covers the surgery, they even have a bariatric center to help you through it lol
so now i need to figgure out what i want to do

The Night shift

Jun 23, 2007

I hate working at nights, my boss has me back on nights 2 nights a week for the next 2 or 3 weeks and i CANT stand it!!!
i hate drunk people (although i do get drunk myself)
I hate dealing with all the shit that comes up at night.
I realized that i gained a lot of weight this past year while i was on the night shift because i hate it so much, i get bored so i eat, i get mad at guests...so i eat, i snack and munch all night long and its not healthy. I am not going to allow myself to self destruct like this anymore. These next few night shifts, i am only drinking water and no munching!!!
I am tired and cranky, thank god i only have one hour left!!!
*maybe i will be in a better mood tomorrow*
xoxo
Robin

Work

Jun 22, 2007

Well, its got out, everyone knows. For the most part everyone is very supportive of my decision to have the surgery, they know i struggle. Its hard though for my co-workers, i have been getting a lot of questions and there are a few that don't understand why i am doing it, everyone says "oh you don't need it" "oh you don't weight that much" i wish i could scream and shake them and be like "OMFG HOW MUCH BIGGER DO I NEED TO BE I WEIGH 400 POUNDS!!!!" I know they are being nice and polite, weight is a very sensitive subject, but seriously when someone is so large that they can barley bend down to pick up a pen off the floor i think they have a problem. Maybe its that i embrace my size, i love me for me!  Quite a few of my co-workers think this is for cosmetic reasons, but no i love myself and i love my curves and i personally think im pretty hot (me being conceited for a few seconds lol) I have some pretty bad medical problems that they dont know about. So well overall its been accepted well I love my co-workers they are like my family gosh i spend 48 hours a week with them.


my surgeon

Jun 22, 2007

I went and saw my surgeon for the first time yesterday. He was really supportive and encouraging, but at the same time came off as very arrogant. I dont know it that was a good or bad thing, i am very picky when it comes to my health care professionals..i guess we will see.
well i am off to work and well i dont want to go, but i never want to go to work, but i have to make money
thats it for now
Robin

how do i?

Jun 20, 2007

My sister had gastric bypass 3 years ago, and she seems very resentful of my decision to have the surgery. I dont want one person to discourage me, but she is my sister and it makes it hard. How do you go about dealing with un-supporting family members?

It begins...

Jun 20, 2007

2 weeks ago i called my surgeon and made my first appointment, and tomorrow is the day. I cant believe its already here. I am excited to see what he has to say and to talk to him about the surgery. I have been doing all of the research i can, and i have prayed and i am ready to take this next step in my life. I am tired of living with this disease. I have tried everything and at this point i am scared this is my last option. No one deserves this but it will make me a stronger better person. I am ready...

About Me
Boise, ID
Location
28.9
BMI
RNY
Surgery
01/29/2008
Surgery Date
Jun 13, 2007
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