Toxic Vapors AKA~Voluptuous Curves~
Life is not the breath's you take.
It's the moments that takes your breath away.
Sometimes we just need to sit back and Breath and let Mother nature take it''s course.
Blessed be !!
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:: BODY MEASUREMENTS CHART ::
| Measurement Weight |
6/2/07 Before/wls 256 |
7/5/07 3/W/out 226 |
8/13/07 9/W/out 215 |
9/17/07 14/WOut 203 |
10/29/07 20/WOut 190 |
11/12/07 22/WOut 180 |
12/11/07 6 Months 170 |
1/16/08 7Months 160 |
| Neck Chest Waist Hips Thigh Ankle Arm Wrist Calf |
17 50 52 51 29 ? 16 ? 17 1/2 |
16 45 48 48 1/2 25 10 1/2 16 7 16 |
15 42 46 47 24 10 14 7 16 |
15 40 43 45 1/2 23 10 14 7 16 |
15 40 43 44 23 10 14 7 16 |
14 38 40 43 23 10 13 1/2 7 16 |
13 1/2 37 40 42 22 9 1/2 13 1/2 6 1/2 15 |
13 1/2 37 37 39 1/2 20 9 1/2 12 1/2 6 1/2 15 |
| Measurement Weight |
2/12/08 173 |
0/0/07 | 0/0/07 | 0/0/07 | 0/0/07 |
0/0/07 | 0/0/07 | 0/0/07 |
| Neck Chest Waist Hips Thigh Ankle Arm Wrist Calf |
13 1/2 37 39 40 20 9 1/2 12 1/2 6 1/2 15 |
I was told to make a Journal from my very first diet. I will try and do my best, I am old and also went through so many diets no doubt I missed a few and got some of the dates messed up. I will also be posting later on about the progress of the new diet I am on. And I am shooting for surgery by April ..*Crosses fingers.* Hope the surgen and all the others feel I can too. Thank you for being my friends and supporting me along the way.
*MUAH!*
Weight Journal
My first diet was when I was 13 years old and in the 8th grade JR. High school. I was in a size 18-20 My Mom had just fount out she was diabetic so this enforced the diet more so. I had followed that diet along with her. Measuring the food that I ate, making a diary and counting calories. For half a year in the 8th grade I took my lunch of a small salad diet dressing two table spoons and half sandwich on lite bread and mustard with a piece of fruit.
Summer came and My aunt showed me a pair of black jeans a size 12. I never had a pair of blue jeans. Mom said they cost to much for how fast I gained weight and would have to buy new ones a few times a year, so I had to where those stretch polyester kind you know with the line running down the front of the legs that grandma wears. This I got teased terribly in school middle school when everyone started wearing make up and dressing real nice. I never went to any school functions because I was teased about my weight and clothing.
You guessed it those pair of jeans my aunt held out was a goal to get to. I worked hard on my diet. Walked and even volunteered to walk to the stores for my neighbors and we lived on top a hill a mile from the store.
When I returned back to 9th grade I wore those jeans the very first day proudly and even got my hair permed for the first time. People started talking to me, seen me as a person saying Hi in the hallway as I passed them by. I was stunned since they talked nicely. I was not the one they laughed at, pointed at and made the butt of joke daily.
But I learned quickly how fast the weight comes back on by the end of 10th grade I was bigger than I was before the diet. I was a 22 going on 24 size jeans and well you guessed it Mom went bought me those pull ups I ended up quitting school High school was so bad I refused to do my work in certain classes and then it got so bad I skipped those classes and only went to 3 where I was lost in my work art class 2 periods and last biology. I got caught and when they called my Mom I said I was quitting and never coming back and no one could make me go back I simple refused to go punished me I said I still wont go back to that daily abuse.
That was the end of my school days and a new diet at age 15. The diabetic diet since my Mom cooked only that way I still as a teen got an allowance of course and spent it on soda pop and chips and candy The diet faded and I stayed big for a few years till I was around 20 years old then I went on a major change I wanted a boyfriend like all my friends had but no one wanted to date the fat chick.
Grapefruit Diet was introduced. I ate those all day and night long. I lost weight but as soon as I ate regular food my hips and belly came back. Now, I might eat one now and then. Only the Pink ones. I had so many back then.
I was 23 at the time I heard about The vinegar diet. You know do a shot of it when you wake up and before bed. I had on cucumbers and tomato's as snacks plus I'd also eat moderately lite lunch and dinner. That did not last long I liked Vinegar on my fries but to drink it straight all the time I couldn't stomach it to long. I did do it for about a month though.
Now of age Diet pills where talked about and Off I went to 3 different doctors since I weighted 279lbs I had no neck all face and shoulders belly bigger than my chest lonely and depressed I had to do what ever it took to lose the weight and if it was drugs that would do it I tried it.
First, I went to Ellwood and that doctor for Ionaments, yellow jackets they where called on the streets. I did take off some weight but in time my system got used to the speed and the doctor would not up the dosage so I went to another doctor in Aliquippa and got Dioxins. More weight shed off but my body got used to those. Then I went to Midland and pills called black beauties not sure what the pharmaceutical name is. Eventually I lost a pretty decent amount of weight and was happy even though it wasn't my goal and all my friends where still smaller than me.
Years pass by and the weight slowly came back on I stopped taking those diet pills couldn't afford them without work they where pretty costly and I had no job Plus I think back then the late 80's they was pulled or banned. Not sure really.
Now comes weight watchers and it was close to the diabetic diet counting points and such the food itself costly that did not last long when either. I went back following diabetic diet at 24 when the doctor said to me when I weighted 260lbs I had high blood sugar.
I knew how to cook and measure my food and which food groups and how much of each to consumed daily since I had been living with my mother and cooking for the family the way she taught me to for it. But I wanted to try the all veggie diet you know the quick fix and fast results. Broccoli, celery, carrots and cauliflower dipped in ranch and not low fat the good kind and I did take off 30lbs the first month 15 more the second month even another 15 the 3rd month I didn't have to take no more pills it was normal again my blood sugar. But soon veggies I had seen enough as we all know pizza, wings and nachos and ice cream taste far better than veggies.
At 27 years old I did the all soup diet all winter long sure I lost but who wanted hot soup in the summer not me so I went to toast and tomato sandwiches only 2 a day no more. I lost a little of what I had put back on over the years but nothing satisfying. I was always the biggest girl when me and my friends go out. it lasted till the end of summer.
That diet was over and in came the all Juice diet you drink juice and water for a month nothing else. I lost weight sure but once I started to eat food the next month it slips back on..
At age 30 -31 I went through a stage that I puked what ever I ate and took exlax. I worked out with Richard Simon's tapes I love him he makes it fun to work out. I lost a little weight but stopped when I got an infection in the back of my throat from my fingernail and the doctor told me what I was risking and how I was harming my body and could eventually die.
I hadn't really put on to much of that weight since I watched what I ate. I snuck and cheated now and then though. And still worked out with Richard Simon's. Till I seen this.
At 32 I went on a beer and popcorn diet. Yes, that right. I seen a lady on Oprah and she said that is how she lost her weight, She was so thin. I was like yes! I like beer and popcorn.
I had done that for 2 years Lost 80lbs walked 3 miles a day walked everywhere I went no sugar pills needed again I lifted weights to back then. Drinking beer danced all night and had popcorn. But how long could someone live on beer and not turn into an alcoholic? I had to stop drinking because I did not want to have to go to AA meetings and be the town drunk.
I had to have back surgery done the year 2000 December 26th and I came on New Year's Eve. Steroids had to be taken for mass muscle to grow around my neck where the bone was taken out and replaced and fused together I gained 30lbs real fast and it was winter time. You guessed it The weight was coming back on once you start eating the good food and so forth for people like me it seems to pack right back on and twice as much and faster than the last time.
2002 another try with the diabetic diet no more working out with Richard Simon's because if you all seen his work outs your arms constantly go and my surgery was at the top of my back and lower neck they had to cut through the front of my throat right side to get to the bad disc.
So, I ask the doctor for those new diet pill that collect the fatty oils from the food you eat, they cost $180 too. Now if you had ever tried these then you know you can have accidents so I rarely left my house. After two and half months I stopped taking them after a near accident walking to my moms house. So I switched to the Slim fast the chalky powder kind even in the blender with ice and made as a milkshake I had to drink it down fast and then get a brain freeze once I drank that I had to down a glass of water to get the chalky taste down.
Once again after time the weight came back and then some The doctor I asked for adapex another diet pill he did give them to me reluctantly another few months and weight came off I felt great 2003 -2004 I lost track basically so many years so many diets. The doctor tell me my sugar is too high the pills are not working he says it time to try the shots. I fight him on this promise to lose weight no needles daily shots I watched my mother for years and she bruised up and bled.
I refused the shot, I did not want to have to be like my Mom shots 3 times a day plus the other shot she had to take as well twice that is 5 shots it sends chills down my spin thinking about it.
I heard about the surgery to get your stomach shrunk into a small pouch. I talked to him about it after researching it on the computer Then I seen people in my town get it done I go back to my doctor and suggest this surgery when he speaks of taking the shot because my pills no longer work lowing my blood sugar. At that time he said no he did not believe in that and also mention about complications.
I told him it will help my sugar go away. But he mentions the shot back and forth this goes for two years and another round of diet pills of the adapex but this time they make me shake and my head fill funny IM older and they affect me differently then when I was in my 20's.
I tried the Akin's diet it lasted for a few months, then back to slim fast since they came out with the new ones already in a can the strawberry wasn't that bad on ice.
Last visit to the doctors I told him I want this surgery done I am even in a group where people talk and help one another along and had the surgery done and some considering it. My sugar is in the 500 & 600's.
My cholesterol is high and I'm on so many medications and now the blood pressure is slightly up and he has been tracking my diets and weight loss and gain for years. My health is in jeopardy heat disease follows next and he say yes finally to the Gastric Bypass.
I have to say it is not the diets that failed I did lose weight on most of them if I remained on it long enough. The thing is I feel hungry all the time. When dieting I feel like I'm starving since I cut so much food out and replaced it with drinking water before and after each meal I end up feeling balloted not full.
And when I am not on a diet do to giving up feeling frustration and discuss I eat and even after a big dinner an hour later I want something to eat feeling hungry or craving sweets. Sometimes I have to wonder is it me what's wrong with me I should be stuffed asking myself questions that are never answered. But after I went to the bypass seminar I had learned that the part of the stomach they dislodge from the small pouch they reshape. Our stomachs produce a hormone that makes you feel hungry I think she called it duodenum. but nonetheless that was my answer to why I always felt hungry I was shocked really to learn our stomachs even full would make a hormone that has us wanting more food all the time.
I joined a support group on line ..This one referred by my sister. She had this bypass done at Christmas time and is doing great I have 4 other friends who also had it done and they are now healthy none has the high cholesterol or diabetes no high blood pressure no lower back pain or achy joints knees, ankles, feet.
I had quit smoking that was the first step and now a diet to show that I am serious about the life altering change I will be dedicated to for the rest of my life. I want to be healthy to live longer and to also be able to help my mother when she needs it as she gets older cannot do that if I am blind or limbless or six feet under do to my organs not functioning do to the high blood sugar and heart disease or simple to over weight to help her or myself.
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About Me
New Castle, PA
Location
26.1
BMI
Surgery
06/11/2007
Surgery Date
Feb 02, 2007
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