Rewind to the past. Every new years resolution we all start a new diet. Well every year for the past 10 yrs my resolution is always the same. Here goes 2007, bringing in the New Year by starting Jenny Craig. I thought for sure good Old Jenny will save me. Nope..Jenny failed me, or I failed Jenny. Anyways, It wasn't helping me, just like all the other weight lost programs. There was a time when I was doing Jenny Craig, fat burners, phenterine and dieters tea. I was fed up and depressed. I gave up and starting eating my favorite foods again because thats what made me happy. I went to Disneyland in October of 2007 and I'm getting in Space Mountain, FUCNSHITFUCK I DON'T FIT IN THE DAMN RIDE! I hated myself. I couldn't stop thinking about it. The next morning I called my insurance company and asked them if they cover Bariatric Surgery and the angel on the other end, said YES. It was music to my ears.. of course I celebrated and went to the Cheesecake factory. Extra strawberries on that cheesecake please!
I had no one to guide me, I did all the searching on my own. It was simple, all I had to do was locate a surgeon and find out he/she was in network. Attended a symposium, scheduled an appt. There I was, on my way to 2008. 6 months of pre-op and all that good stuff. Dr. Lamar wanted me to lose 30 lbs before surgery. I had 6 months to lose the weight. Did I? HELLL NO! I tried. Instead of losing the 30, I gained 19. What the heck. I'm have the surgery, might as well live it up.
I was wrong. When I met with him mid 2008, he said "thats not good" " your suppose to lose the weight, not gain it". BOOHOO. I was boohooing alright. He said he will not perform the surgery unless I lose the weight. I was devistated. What did I do!!
10/30/08 I did it.
It's now 01/26/09 and I'm down 49 lbs.
(I had regret doing this surgery, I ended up in the hospital a couple weeks after surgery. I had hunger pains and throwing up constantly. I was really sick.)
I'm ok now.