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Wow!  Today I got on the scale and it read 273!  That's from 285 on surgery day, Wed. the 7th!!!  12lbs gone and it been faster than I could have imagined.  I really think it's the liquid diet I've been on since then.  I kind of hate to move on to full liquids because I will slow down on the wieght loss.

Na, I'm hungry, and I really don't think I can wait another week to go on full liquids.  Besides Friday, Sam and I are going to a party at the Country Club to celebrate a neighbors50yh birthday.  I'll just have to watch everyone else enjoy their rib eye steaks.  Anyway, It'll be fun just to get out of the house for awhile.

Oh, by the way, I got the receptionist job with Gaberil Holdings that I  wanted.  Today was my first  day and it went well.  Everyone said I did great and they were all so nice there.  I feel it's going to be a fun place to work.

Till later!

Yeah!!!  I'm back  and doing pretty good.  I'm not going to lie and say it's been a breeze, but it's been easier than I thought it would be.  The liquid diet has been a little hard on me, because I feel a little weak at times.  After this Wed. I'll move on to full liquids and maybe it will be better.

I do have to say that everyone at OH has been just great!  I love all the good vibes you all send out during these hard times and it just makes me feel so comforted.  I couldn't have done it without all of you out there.  Thank you, Thank you, and Thank you again.

Surgery day was nerve wracking, but all the nurses and doctor were so good at what they were doing.  It made me feel good about the whole thing.  

I had a little trouble with being put under, just like I thought I would.  It was hard to bring me out of it, I just wanted to sleep and they really had to work hard to get me up and moving.  The pain was like pain should be.  On a scale of 1 to 3, mine was a 2.  I will say with each day that passes it is so much easier.

Right now I just have to get used to not eating.  I think I'm doing pretty good.

Oh and I think I got a job.  Only thing is, I got sent for a drug test on Friday after the surgery and it came back positive for something and I have to go back Monday and take all my meds. to show them.

I'm sure it may be all those narcoctics they gave me for surgery because I've never taken anything that hasn't been prescribed to me.
I hope it all checks out because I really want this job.

Before I forget, I've already lost 6lbs!

Till later!

O.K. ,  Here goes everything!!!  I am still nervous, but I'm more in touch with the fact that I really want this surgery.  It's good, and it's going to help me achieve my goal to a healthy lifestyle.  I've been wanting this for so long and my husband is so supportive.  robin, if you're there, I want to tell you my husband and yours seem to be cut from the same cloth.  Aren't we LUCKY!!!

I just want to express my deepest thanks to everyone at the OH or involved with it.  It has been a big help to me and others like me. I have come to depend on it and all of you out there with my own private journey.  I found out it's not so private and my problems are shared by many like me.  This unites us.  

9 hours count down till lap band and change!!!

God Bless You All!

O.K. , just one more day till my WLS.  Boy am I nervous!!!  I want it to be over with already.   Do I sound a little panicked?  Well, I am.  I weigh 282lbs down from 298 just since Sept.  So my BMI is better.  I guess it will all be alright.  Please God, may it come to pass and I feel better about this on Wed.

My mother is here, and will be here for 2 weeks.  There's nothing like having your mom with you during the tough times.  I'm so happy she's here and she says it is going to be great for me.  Wait, I know this.  It sure helps to have your mom with you at times like this.  Wait, I already said that!  I'm rambling... Slow down, Rose, and just take some deep breaths.  

I'm closing my eyes, taking a deep cleansing breath, and seeing myself a year from now... My blood moniter is reading 98, and I'm not even medicated, I have to yank up my size 14 pants because they're too loose and about to fall off, ( I need to go buy the 12's maybe even the 10's)  

Yes!  I'm there, and this would have been worth it, to live life on a healthier level and looking so much better too.

O.K.... I'm ready....

See you all on the losers side!

Wow!!!! I found out I was approved for my surgery today!!!!  How did that happen???  Last week both my husband and I kept calling the surgeons office, to make sure that all the paper work had been sent to our provider because we found out that it had sat on the desk of the clerk that handled them, only to find out that my paper work had been lost under a big pile for more than 2 months!!!

WELL the office called today and told us I had been approved and My Surgery is scheduled for next Wed. the 7th.  How unreal is that!  I mean I haven't even lost the weight I was supposed to have lost, (only 13 lbs.out of the 30 the doctor wanted me to lose.

I really hope I'm ready for this, because I just about had given up.  Besides that, today I went for a 2nd interview with a company I really would like to work for.  I spoke the the CEO, and it went really well.

I just have to trust God, and know he has a plan for me.  After all my health comes first.

Till tommorow!

It's been a long time since I posted, and rembered today I had a few mins. to do so.  I've been busy trying to find a new job and have been going on several interviews.  I'm being selective because I don't want to have to do this again for a long time, (look for a job).  

I went today to apply for a receptionist opening with an on line payroll company.  It went rather well, and I really expect to hear from them by tomarrow.  The co. owner said he would let me know either way.

I'm keeping my  fingers crossed.  He seamed to be a good employer and very friendly.

Now gettting to the WLS issue.  I called my surgeons office last week to see if things were moving along.  I got upset because, I had called a month ago to make sure they had received all my cardio heart study from my cardioligist office.  Well, at that time they comfrimed they had and that they had sent all of my paperwork to my insurance  provider and she assured me now all I had to do was be patient and play the waiting game.

Lo and behold, when I called last week, I was told by the adminstrator that nothing had been sent along to my provider.  She told me she was going to send it that very day.  My husband then got on the phone with her to be the firm hand.  He told her we were going to call back this week to "just make sure".

I was sooo dissapointed!  I mean here I am as it is, sitting on pins and needels, so to speak, and nothing had been done!  I'll know by tomorrow if it was sent.  

Till Friday!

Today I went to apply for a job as a clericial receptionist, at a day spa.  
When I walked in the lady at the front desk, Joanna, said I looked lovley.
She commented on what I was wearing,( a black suit), and repeated a couple of more times on how great I looked.  To tell the truth, I think she was shocked that someone as heavy as me could look so presentable.

Anyway, I filled out an app. and left off my resume with her.  She told me to call Tue. to follow up.  Wait, I thought they were supposed to call me if they were interested?  Well, we will see how this ends up, on tuesday.

Sam is finishing early today, so we may do something together later.  You know maybe dinner or a movie or both.

We went to see Apoctolipto( spelling incorrect) last week, at the new Paladium theater last Sunday.  Sam wanted to see it, since it got good reviews for direction.  The movie was really different in content, but  the fliming was done rather well.  I found myself getting drawn in by the main character,"Jaguar Paw".  It made me appreciate that we all live in modern times with modern conviniences.  Hey, times were really tough back then.  Just trying to stay alive was a big challenge.  I'm  glad
we got the chance to see it, because now when it gets discussed around our circle of friends, we'll have an informed oppinion.

Till next time!

Well, I haven't posted in about a month.  I've been very busy with entertaning out of town guest and family over the holidays and I'm very tired.  Since before Thanksgiving, I've had to do extra loads of laundry, and cook for at least 3 extra people every week.  At first I really enjoyed it, but with my age, weight, and diabetes, I got really exhausted by the end of the day.

Anyway, except for New Years Day, (which I hope we spend at home quitely), it'll be all behind me soon.  

I'm also getting depressed because I have not heard anything from my insurance, about approving the WLS.  My nueclear cardio exam came back great, and my cardioligist, Dr Lui, sent all the results to Dr. Wright, my WLS surgeon.  I called the office to make sure they received all the paper work, and told me they would notify me as soon as they found out anything.

I've also been looking for a new job, the past couple of months, but I've had trouble finding one for a front office receptionist.  I guess at almost 300 lbs. I don't have that "look" they're looking for.  To bad for them, because I'm a great employee!  I show up on time and don't call in sick.  I'm trainable, and I have a good personality.  It's just too bad none of the employers I've applied to can't see past my weight.  I mean, I dress really well, and I have a professional demeanor, and for goodness sake, I've worked as a front office recep. for over 15 years, I think I've got it down.

Opps, I'm just fustrated, and depressed, and wish something would come up.

I really had a good holiday, but I guess it's true, that some people get down and out, no matter how good things are.  I just have to move on, and think positive.

O.K., enough whinning.  Till next time! Bye!

I just got a call from Dr. Liu's office reminding me of the appt. to go over the heart work-up I had a couple of weeks ago.  I'm pretty nervous, about it.  I hope there is nothing really wrong and I can get cleared for the WLS.  

When I was taking the test, the Tech., Jan said they couldn't tell me anything even if they saw something.  Jan, said the Dr. would go over the results at the next appt., which is this Friday.  She also said that if there was something really wrong, they would call me in earlier than my set appt.  So in a sense, If I didn't get called in, it's a good thing.
They didn't call, so I'm feeling good about that.  You know what they say no news is good news, ( in this instance).

Till next time!

Today is Monday, and it has been a few days since I logged on.  Alot has happened since the last time on my journal.  My father-in-law passed away last Mon. the 20th at 3:12 a.m.  We kind of felt it was going to happen because he was really out of it the whole day Sunday.  I had trouble getting him to take his ensure drink .  By 10:30p.m. I knew he was not going to make it past Monday.  He started what people call the "death rattle", breathing.  He took his last breath at 3:12 a.m.

It's a sad affair, but Sam and I agreeded that it was for the better.  He really was in a vegatative state.  He had already lost his hearing, and he didn't  know anybody, or couldn't speak either.  He bascially just ate his ensure drink, and had have his diaper changed.  ( and bathed)

Now I just have to help keep my husbands spirits up, and be there for him until he can move forward with the loss.  It's hard because his mother had just died two months ago.

I tell him it is a blessing, now they're together again, and will there for us when our time comes.

Until, next time...