Ryder08

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Had Hunter Oct 4th, 2011.  He was 6lb 3oz 18 1/2in. 

I went in for an NST on the 3rd and Hunter fail his kick tests.  So they admitted me for observation.  And they decided to do my c-section the next morning.  He was born at 7:57 am.

I needed two iron transfusions and a blood transfusion.  I remained in the hospital until the 9th.  Hunter was fine and ready to go on the second day.  I now need weekly labs for my iron.  I knew my iron was low but not deadly low.  My hct/hemoglobin was extremely low as well.  I may need another transfusion.  I will know in a few days.

I have been in bed since I have gotten home.  I am happy that I actually can breastfeed.  I was unable with my first.  I am super tired and healing well.  My 3 year old, Ryder, is very lovable to the baby.  He kisses and had held him gently.  It's very sweet.

Got my c-section scheduled.  I am so happy.

Oct 12, 2011.  It's also my mothers birthday.  What a cool birthday present for her.  She is so excited.

Pregnancy is going well.  I still am losing though out.  I am down to 194 as of today. 

I just hope I stabilize after the baby.  My goal weight is only 34 lbs off.  I already look so thin.  I don't really want to go past 160 lbs.

More bed rest, so I will say goodnight.

Haven't updated in a while.  Been focused on this baby.

I sure don't feel like I fail.  I still lost 30lbs being pregnant.  I have less than 8 weeks until my son is here.  My 3 year old is very excited about it.

My labs are fab.  I sure don't follow the rules.  I drink water while eating.  not a lot, but enough to help wash it down.

I am proud of myself.  I have gone from size 26 to 9/10. 

Something to smile about.

I have been very quite lately.  I am trying to understand my body as it is now.  I change daily.  One day I can eat and be fine. Next day, I am puking my life force out and I am back in the hospital.

This has been the craziest pregnancy.  Finally hit second trimester.  SO hopefully, we will stop this morning sickness and I can feel like me again. 

On a positive note, in two weeks We get to find out the sex of our child.   I am still trying to get used to this surgery and now the fact that I am pregnant, honestly has not sunk in.  I am waiting for the fun stuff.  My first was so easy and no issues at all.  Add this GB surgery to it..... wow, I have mixed thoughts.

SO, I am trying to focus on the positive and spending quality time with my son before this child is here.  My boy is clingy and I love that.  I don't want it to change at all. 

I keep losing weight as well.  Doctors is concerned and I am as well.  I am happy to see the lose and I wonder what and I doing to baby. 

well, off to sleep.  Ryder is at school and I steal all sleep hours I can.

Ok, first let me say OH CRAP.

I went to the doctor for this nasty cold/flu thing because I am very dehydrated.   They said I have a sever chest cold and I need a chest xray.  So, I went with the nurse to pee in my little cup.  Nurse came back and said  NO xrays for you.  You are very very pregnant.  Tomorrow, I learn the VERY VERY part.  

Crazy part is I am on Ortho.  We are every happy.  I am scared out of my mind.  I get no meds until tomorrow when they tell me how far along I am.

I am so sick.  I am drinking fluids.  They will hook me to an IV drip tomorrow.  I was borderline dehydrated, so they thought one more day.

To us, this is God's will and we will make it the best as we possible can.

I hear that this early out of surgery, I will most likely spend time in and out of the hospital for IV drips.  Oh Joy!!

Now, Let's pray for TEAM PINK.

PCM says it's the flu.   AHHH, I am sooo sick.  This cough drives me crazy.  Nothing is working.  He told me to take Claritin D. 

I am dried up in the nose.  It's in my lung. 

I have the worst headache ever and I am bloody tired.  Still on liquid b/c everything makes me gag right now.  (my cough is so violent that if I am eating I throw up too.)

Back to bed with my bum.

Only good thing about being sick... is you lose weight. 

NOTE TO SELF:   DRINK DRINK DRINK  and smile

I don't know what my deal is.  Seriously. 

Labs are fine.  I am just so bloody tired and really can't eat much for the last week.  On a liquid diet again.  AGAIN. 

Have I told you lately how much I hate liquid diets?  When starting this journey, I prefered a liquid diet.  But not now.  

I am call dr again monday.  I want new labs.  Something is not right.  I don't have a cold or anything of that nature.

I simply feel like a mack truck hit me over and over.

AHHHHHH... excuse me as I whine a bit more.  I need a pity party.

I should be happy with the weight falling off.  I haven't really seen a stall.  I am happy with it and my new outlook about myself.  It's just being sick sucks HARD CORE.

These are times where I want my mom.  Can't wait to go home friday.  I soo want my mom.  She always has a magic touch that makes me whole again.  I sure hope one day, I am the same for my son!

NSV moments are coming closer and closer by the day.  Just yesterday alone, I had 5.  My self confidence is booming.  I actaully feel alive again. 
I haven't blogged much because my life is soo full right now.  Yet, I don't have much to actually talk about.  Life is life.  Somedays, it just blows or days are wonderful.

My first personal goal has been achieved and I am marking it off the list.

Today,  the scale informed me that I am the weight I was on the day I married my hubby in 2000.   (225lbs)

I am quite happy at the moment.  Still tooo camera shy to post photos, someday I hope to be comfortable enought to that the photos. 

As of this morning I am 230 and Officially Obese.

I am still shopping my closet.  not much left but still haven't spent money on clothing.
I can play with my son on the floor and I can spin him around with out falling down after one spin. 
I can actually clean my house.  Yep, I let the maid go!! 
I actually feel accomplished and brave.
I am slowing entering the world again.  It's not as scary as it was before.

I am proud of myself.  over 70lb lose in just over 4 months.  Incredible.

Pardon me as I pat myself on the back!

Been awhile since I posted.

Life is going quickly. I can't believe it's the end of the year already. I have been focused on living life.

I took an internet break. I got overwhelmed by all the forums. I was reading everything. I learned that we are all different and have different life plans and lifestyles.

I have lost a whole person this year. My mind is connected with my body now. Eating is easier and I can eat many exciting items. Since my doctor hates protein shakes, I have been experimenting with new food that are high in Protein. Last month he asked me to increase to 4 meals with 2 snacks. This plan is working for me. I am actually getting 40-55g of protein a day. I am shooting for 85g daily. Some days, I eat like crazy, every 2 hours. I nibble now.

My mother is a grazer; she only weights like 100lbs and is 5'1". I am now eating like her. I eat what I desire but in two or three baby bites. I am full after that.

I have time, according to the doctor, to master this with food enriched proteins. His teachings are Water first up to 2 liters a day, then proteins to 60g, then veggies.

Don't get me wrong; I have tried a ton of shakes. Reading all the forums got me scared, so I went against the doctor and tried over $40 in sample packs. (this week Nectar arrived so I can try)

The ones I have tried are gritty and milkshake like. I don't personally care for milkshakes. I learned that I no longer can tolerate cows milk. I am using Lactaid Milk now.

I got so confused with other plans that I lost focus on my own plan. In Nov, I visited both surgeon and nut to discuss this issue: Protein by shake or not. Together, we refocused my diet to food enriched proteins. I am still dabbling in adding powder to soups, oatmeal, grits, cheesy Mashy Taters ( my kid loves this ), sauces, dips, etc.

I never used to cook. Now, I cook three times a week and hubby does the rest. I freeze my food in 2 oz containers. I am still a grab-n-go girl. Don't think that fact will ever changes, therefore smart choices are needed.

Well, needless to say, Life is different and I am actually enjoying it. I dreaded the holiday season, But I fared well. I even ate sf cookies. My mom made them tiny bite cookies, perfect for little 2 yr old hands. I had a few. I eat it slowly and let the cookie melt in my mouth. YUMMY and sinful. But oh well, I survived and still lost weight.

Still haven't really exercised. I love walking stores and window shopping with my boy. It's really stop and go. I love to watch him explore. We adventure out for several hours. So I guess all that walking helps, especially when you used to sit on your bottom for 13 hrs a day.

So here is to a new chapter and a New Year of new and exciting adventures.  :cheers: