A year and 5 months post-op

Nov 25, 2008

Hi everyone! It's been a long time since I've been on here and wrote in my blog. I'm still doing very well. The last time I wrote in here I was living with my bestfriend, Becky. I moved in with her after it didn't go to well lving with my parents, which I moved in with them after breaking up with my ex of 5 years. I needed to get away from him and be single for a while, but my parents weren't like the fact that I wanted to move on so fast meaning dating and such. So I decided that it would be a good idea to move in with my bestfriend, Becky. I lived with her, her two kids that are 3 and 4, and her boyfriend or whatever you call him. That's another story in itself and don't want to go there. Well me living with her went good for a while. I had lots of fun with her and going out with her and doing the single girl thing for a while. Then in August I went to my cousins wedding and got this strange private phone call from my sister saying she has someone that wants to talk to me. Well I was very drunk and also didn't get much sleep. I was up for like 48 hours straight so I didn't know what to think when she said that to me. So then this guy got on and we talked for a little while. He seemed nice. Then my sister got on because I didn't know why this guy I've never met wanted to talk to me. So she told me that he saw my picture on my myspace and he thought I was cute and he wanted to talk to me. At first she didn't want to give him my number for 2 weeks but he kept on her until she did on August 3rd of 2008. The next day my sister texted me asking what I thought of the guy because he told her to ask what I thought of him. And I wrote back saying he seemed nice.  So my sister asked me if I would text or call him. So I said sure if you give me his number I will. So I texted him hey you. Then he wrote me back hey you. We texted back and forth for 2 minutes. Then he, Vaughn, asked if he could call me. So he called me and we talked for a long time.  Then a couple days after I sent him a picture of myself. Then after that we talked everynight for many hours. We hit it off pretty fast on the phone.  Then one night I went out with Becky and well I was lefted behind at a bar very drunk so I called Vaughn up and was having a anxioty attack so he woke up his mom to come and get me. Then I called my sister and asked her to come and get me. He was really flipping out because in the mids of talking to him my cell phone died so he didn't know what had happened to me. Then I found this guy that helped me out and got me to my sister. She then drove me to  Vaughns, house. I didn't even say hi to him. I just walked right up to him and hugged him and gave him a kiss. Then he brought me in to his house and got me into some of his sweat pants and a shirt. Then I went to the living room and layed down with my head in his lap and fell asleep with him rubbing my head all night. Then I woke up to meeting his whole family. His mom, brother, sisters, grandmother, Aunts, friend, neices and nephews. And I just met him 13 days after just talking to him on the phone so it was a little overwhelming, but I didn't mind. He was very sweet. He took care of me not even really knowing me that well. After that weekend I went their the next weekend and every weekend after that. Then me and Becky had a little fight about me staying an extra day at Vaughns so I just told her that I wanted to move out of her place and move in with Vaughn. So I moved in with Vaughn September 13th 2008.  That's where I still am. I'm the happiest I've ever been. He's the greatest guy I've ever been with. He's very sweet. VERY SEXY!!!!! So it's November 26th. and I've been with him for almost 5 months. We started offically going out August 16th 2008. So I'm doing very well and I'm very happy!!!!!

A year and 2 months post-op

Sep 07, 2008

Yep it's been a little over a year. Very weird!!! I'm still doing great. I just can't believe it's been over a year. It went really fast. Alot as changed besides my weight. I was single and happy but then I found an awesome guy. We've been together 2 months. He's nicer and sweeter than any guy I've ever met in my life. I'm so happy!!! And about time!!!! TTFN!!


10 and half months post-op`

May 04, 2008

Well I'm doing much better. I'm the assistant manager at Lane Bryant. And I love it so so much. I'm still losing weight like crazy again. I'm down 160lbs weirdness!!!! So I'm a size 16!!!!!!! I was a 28. It's so crazy!! But I'm very happy! Well TTFN!!!!!

10 months post-op

Mar 20, 2008

Hi everyone! Well I live back home in Webster, Ma with my parents. I've been living there for almost 2 weeks. And I'm happy that I made the choice to leave my bf. I needed some space so badly. I can't wait to start going out with my friends and just worry about me and only me! That might sound selfish but I've put everyone in my life first for to long it's my turn now! 
I've lost 142 lbs. So I weigh 228 from 370 my start weight. Which I think is a big accomplishment. And I'm very proud of myself. Well TTFN!!!

9 months and a week post-op

Mar 06, 2008

Hi everyone!! Well I'm doing great! I feel great!! I just got a new job. I work at a Lane Bryant in a Mall. I love it. My dream job for a long time. I get to dress up and look great. I get a 40% off the clothes, which is very cool. I'm leaving my boyfriend. I can't take the controling behavor anymore. And it's getting worse as I lose more and more weight. I need to be single for a little while. I've depended on a man my whole life and I'm done doing that. I need to be more independent. I'm moving back home until I can save up some money to get my own place. I'm down 133lbs. And I'm looking and feeling great. I can't wait to lose more weight but I'm just happy that I can look better in clothes now. Well TTFN!!!

8 months and 3 weeks post-op

Feb 04, 2008

I've been going to my therpist every thursday for almost a month. So far it's working. He's a very nice guy that seems he wants to help me. I'm hoping that he extends are meetings over what my health insurance gave me, which was only 8 meetings with him. Because I know that won't be enough to fix my problems. I'm so confused about my relationship with my boyfriend. I don't know if I want to be with him anymore. That's aweful to say but it's true. He loves me so much. And he talks about how he wants to marry me and give me a baby and a house. And I'm thinking about breaking up with him. Don't get me wrong I love him so much but I want to fix myself so I can give another person 110% like they give me, which my boyfriend does. Well that's whats going on with me...TTFN!!

3 days shy of 8 months post-op

Jan 19, 2008

Hi everyone!! I've gone to my therpist twice and he said he can help me. Which is great. He said that I'm going through normal things as a young women. And that helps alot knowing that I'm not the only one that as gone through this. So I'm going to start going every other week and talk to him. It helps alot, but I'm still confused about my relationship. I love him so much but I just don't know if we are meant to be together. I just feel that I need to be alone for a little while and then try to be with him when I have my together. I feel bad because how can I give 110 percent in this relationship if I don't even love myself or care about myself. I feel like having the surgery has made me more confused about my life. I'm so not use to all the attention that I get from people. Its just weird to get use to things that you would never know about until you go through it. I try to reach out to my family, friends and my boyfriend but they just don't understand and I don't know how to explain the feelings that I'm going through at this time. My head is always going about why I did this and why I'm changing so much not just my weight but ME! I feel like I don't know who I am anymore. I'm lost in myself more now than I was before when I weighed a whole lot. I'm getting to the point that I want to just give up and just forget about my life. I don't know. Someone HELP!!! I'm going INSANE!!!!!!! TTFN!!

7 months, 2 and half weeks post-op

Jan 07, 2008

I'm 123 lbs down. I feel great physically but NOT mentally nor emotionally. I feel like I'm going crazy. I've had 2 nervous breakdowns one was worse than the other. I'm just so anxious all the time. And I just don't know if I should be feeling like this. I really feel like I'm losing my mind along with my weight. It's horrible. I've gone to my dr. and he's put me on some depression and anixoty meds. Than he told me that I should go and talk to someone about what's going on in my head. So I'm going Jan. 14th for that. So I hope he can help me with what's going on in my head. I'm trying to keep it all together but I don't know if I can. Well TTFN!! I'll keep you guys updated on that!!

6 1/2 months ish..post-op

Dec 09, 2007

Well I'm down 109 lbs now. I was putting on my old jeans just to run to the store and I was rushing so I put both of my legs in one of the pants legs. They almost fit, which is crazy. I'm almost half the girl I use to be. Very crazy. I can't get over how fast the weight is dropping. I also notice on how ppl treat me differently. They don't look at me or should I say stare at me. It's weird but I'm sure you guys all know what I'm talking about. Well TTFN!!

Little over 6 months out now...

Dec 02, 2007

I'm a little over 6 months out and I'm going through alot of things mentally. I don't know what to do or who to even talk to about what I'm thinking about. I'm really depressed. I didn't know that I would change as much as I have. I just thought I would change size wise but that's about it. Well that's so not true. You change physically, mentally, and emotionly. Also on how you think about things and people in your life. Don't get me wrong I love my bf more than life but I just don't know if I'm happy with him anymore. I feel like I need to break out and be single. And it's not because I want to find someone else. It's just I've never had the confidence to be single and on my own. So I don't know how it's like to have my own money and buy what I want when I want it. I don't know if I'm being selfish but thats just how I feel. I just don't know how to explain it. I've been working so many hours in work and I just feel like I'm not seeing any of the money that I'm making. I'm losing weight like crazy and I would like to buy new clothes once in a while. I don't want to spend a fortune. I just won't to be able to look good. But my bf always says it's a waste to buy more and more clothes when I'm just going to lose more weight. I understand that but I just want to buy like 2 pairs of jeans and a couple of shirts so when I do go out I don't look like a slob. I feel great so I want to look good. I don't see what's wrong with that. Also I want to go and hang out with my friends and have a social life more than I use to but it's like my bf don't get that either. I'm breaking out of my "FAT" girl state and wanting to meet new people and see the world. Well my bf thinks that I want to meet new guys and get with some guys. And that's so not it. I want to meet new people because I'm feeling more comfortable in my own skin so I don't mind going out and talking to new people. I just need a change. I want to be more independent everyday. I need to get my licenses and I'll be unstopable. God he'll never let me out of his sight. LOL!! Well I need some feed back and see if anyone else feels this way or every did feel this way. And what you did ? I need big time advice!!! Please help!!!! TTFN!

About Me
Whitinsville, MA
Location
35.2
BMI
RNY
Surgery
06/21/2007
Surgery Date
May 29, 2007
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